Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Bush makes fun of Himself

Ok, this is too rich. Bush doing stand up! He does better when he has writers-and when he sticks to the script.

Russell Peters -comedian

This is a great way to start the morning. I'm going to start a label that is stand up comedians that are like...really good. You know? Not sorta. But laugh good, because the world needs more laughing. Besides, I think comedians are special people. They are paying attention! They see things with a whole different slant. They lead the way. Remember the Jokers in the court had a special rank-they poked fun, but they drew attention. Consumate wag the dog? Artist in residence. They were given permission to play outside the societal rules.

Monday, August 27, 2007

Barn Swallow

Well well! My little nesters are barn swallows, I read in my Utah Birds Book. One of 7 sparrow varieties in Utah, and the only one with a deeply forked tail. Yep-and they lay twice in a season. The babies have hatched, and I've been watching them bring in bits of ... ew...worm and bug. Ok-all for healthy babies.

And guess where they migrate to and from? SOUTH AMERICA! I am so impressed. That is no small flight. But how appropriate is that?

Made Jon laugh at the names of Bushtit and Wood Pewee. So now I can find out what has been making all the noise! We had squirrels this morning but the blackbirds ran him off. Pretty funny to watch.

The weather is glorious, mid 80s Lauren-
and the moon tonight-anyone get a look at her? BEEE utiful!

Sweet dreams everyone.

Blue Skies and Butterflies

Bo I so loved the images at that website and the information was very cool.
I just want to say that yesterday was so wonderful. For me, it seemed like forever since we had done something like that. It was so beautiful up there and looking at all the fun things was a riot. I felt transformed, just getting out of the valley. Hopefully if we can do it again Pam and CA,can make it. Maybe if Lauren gets here before Oct. we can have the day. Even though my legs and hips made a protest if felt so good. I tell you I so miss no being in the mountains that I am truly looking at buying a tent so I can pack and go when it moves me. I loved all the hikes in June and miss doing them. I would love to take you all back up to the Nobletts before the snow starts to fly, it such a cool place.

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Light Body

I liked this sight. It may be no new news to all you women of the Butterfly Clan. Just sending it on because I liked what it had to say, although I havn't read the whole sight, what I did read seemed to be saying what it is I have been trying to say but maybe not all that well. This is a wonderful time to be alive on the planet. A wonderful time to be in the river with all of you.
I was really hitting the wall yesterday and after today, I was caught back up in the "the up draft". The positive energy. The good JuJu.
Just wanted to say thank you.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Bird Battles

We have had so much traffic at the feeders the last few days. It's like bird central in my front yard. I haven't changed the seed, and I haven't added any more feeders, but it's like someone sent out the news and everyone is feasting! It's quite beautiful. Busy, but beautiful. I've enjoyed watching them. It's funny how we forget those sweet magical moments that cost us nothing but slowing ourselves down a bit. I love birds!

They are on the ground, in the air, on the branches, and adorning the feeders. I opened the front door and there were 9 black birds sitting on the lawn. The finches have been plentiful! So many and so different! Jac, you're the bird watcher. I think I'm going to get a book of Utah birds! I almost bought one the last time I was in Barnes and Noble-and then I put it back.

And do they ever cause a racket! A good racket, but quite a noise when they all get going.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Clever Girl!

Clever Dog - The funniest movie is here. Find it

Ok come're going to ask how I know it's a girl dog-right? Well it stands to reason doesn't it? Innovative, creative, problem solving, multi

What else could it be? And she can't leave one behind-she has to have them both...what to do, what to do...

Cockroach Wisdom

Ok so this is what I found on Cockroach:

Cockroach teaches the art of adaptability and ultimate survival instincts under any conditions making this creature an emotional and spiritual shapeshifter. He will teach perserverance and tenacity along with going with the flow of events. Cockroach applies determination and fortitude to survive any event. The wisdom of cockroach teaches how to keep in touch with the world around you, shows how to strengthen vitality and quickness of movement, ability to discern when and how to move, and make use of available resources. Are you looking into the recesses of your spirit for answers? Are you digging deep enough to find what is hidden? Are you adapting to recent circumstances as well as you could? It is time for the cockroach to teach the art of adapting and finding whats hidden.

Great one I think...Really hits home for me right now especially with all of these bizarre cockroach moments I am experiencing...this has been re-occuring for me for a long time glad I finally RESPONDED to what I was hearing....heehee!

(read below to see the cockroach story)

Noticing Time

I must say that I have been having the oddest sensations in regards to time! Usually the days seem to zip by, and I'm always off as to when it is, but usually I'm feeling a bit behind.

What I am noticing now is time seems to be going incredibly SLOW! My days are long, and seem to go on forever. I also am noticing that I am absolutely right about what day it is, like when I go to write a check and such, but as to what MONTH it is? I feel like it is Oct! I am way forward in time. The fact that it is only August shocks me every time I realize it because I am sure it's almost time for Thanksgiving.

I've never had this before...I am way forward in time. I am in the future, and coming back to now instead of being back in time and coming forward?

Does this make sense at all? I've not tried to put it into words before. It's been happening, faster and faster, since coming back from Peru...which really was only in June but feels like it was at least a year ago! This sensation of time moving very slowly sort of makes everything seem stretched out. slo mo...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Laugh out loud

Things That Scare You - Click here for more blooper videos

Sorry-I couldn't help sharing these. They made me giggle, and we all need that don't we? Pranks...they just backfire on us sometimes! You have to watch the last one - there are 4.

Jon and I were talking last night about how the greatest asset is our sense of humor.

Amazing Acrobatics

Amazing Sports Acrobatics - For more funny movies, click here

This has got some amazing gymnastic feats of balance if you like that sort of thing.
Me? I couldn't even do a good cartwheel! This takes some kinda special inner ear thing I think-and I missed that box when I was coming in to planet. wow again! The one where she is balancing on the tip of the upturned leg of a the center woman doing vertical!

1 minute painting

The 1 Minute Painting - The most amazing home videos are here

A while ago I posted this guy doing a 10 minute painting-now he has a one minute version-wow!


Thought this needed to be somewhere on the blog! Good organization and lets public know who is involved in fair trade and ethical practices - can check on companies and find ones that fair-trade..

fair trade federation

also ive been taking acai in the form of mona-vieand some shakes but just found this going to research it more - i heard freeze dried is better have you guys heard anything about acai or do you take?


New Things Coming

Well-in 24 hours my Audi was sold and I am looking for my little convertible 4wd! Question is-do I really want it?
Found a RED one, and a BLUE one...

or am I more of an SUV girl now...

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Acorn Squash and Sweet Potato Mash

This turned out quite well...
2 acorn squash
2 med sweet potatoes - wrapped in foil
1 whole garlic nob, wrapped in foil.

Put them all on the barbeque, and cook the squash until soft on the inside and black on the outside, and the potatoes are soft to the touch.

Cool so you can handle them. Then cut the acorn squash in half, seed them gently and then scrape out the soft pulp and put in bowl. Peel the potatoes with your hands, and the interior is soft to the touch. Mash everything with a fork.

Open the garlic and squish the cloves and you will find the garlic is mushy and carmelized. It's really good just spread on bread too...but take the soft garlic and add it to the potatoes and squash.

garlic, s&p, cayenne, olive oil, pine nuts, parmesan cheese.

Its a Lao Tzu kinda afternoon...

So I really needed to read these this afternoon....Thinking of you guys hope you are all well!
A good traveler has no fixed plans, and is not intent on arriving.

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.

Do the difficult things while they are easy and do the great things while they are small. A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.

All difficult things have their origin in that which is easy, and great things in that which is small.

Anticipate the difficult by managing the easy.

Be Content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Darkness within darkness. The gateway to all understanding.

He who knows, does not speak. He who speaks, does not know.

I have just three things to teach: simplicity, patience, compassion. These three are your greatest treasures.

If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.

If you realize that all things change, there is nothing you will try to hold on to. If you are not afraid of dying, there is nothing you cannot achieve.

It is better to do one's own duty, however defective it may be, than to follow the duty of another, however well one may perform it. He who does his duty as his own nature reveals it, never sins.

A leader is best when people barely know he exists, when his work is done, his aim fulfilled, they will say: we did it ourselves.

To lead people walk behind them.

To produce things and to rear them, to produce, but not to take possession of them, To act, but to rely on one's own ability, To lead them, but not to master them - This is called profound and secret virtue.

Do you have enough patience to wait until your mud settles and the water is clear? Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself?

Thursday, August 16, 2007


I stagger to the computer with my Mate to check in and see who has written on the blog. Touching in and feeling all of you present and around me. I am looking out at the hummer having his morning nectar from the trumpet vine. He always hoovers in front of the open window and has a look at this mornings version of Bed Head, his new favorite TV series. He finds it a bit boring but is always amazed at the new hair design, wondering why anyone would choose hair over feathers. I look out at my little sanctuary, the flowers, vines, trees and scrubs that I carefully planted while creating my patch of green in the desert. Both windows open as the cool morning breeze passes over my skin, sitting here in my sports bra. Suddenly I think, HELL I need to take off this Sports bra - I'M HOT!

Childbirth Memories

3D Animation Of Childbirth - The funniest movie is here. Find it

See if this triggers any body memories...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Running from Myself

The lack of motivation lasted most of the day. At least, I thought it did. I finally dialed (nah-punched) the phone and started talking to people and around the third person I realized that I had actually BEEN doing things-I had just deleted the memory of it as I was caught in the feeling that I was doing nothing. And not happily doing nothing either.

Then I realized I had washed the dog, taken Jon to get his tires rebalanced, had a nice lunch out with him, walked the dog, done 3 loads of laundry. So when was all this doing nothing going on? And why wasn't I valuing what I was doing? (And I didn't turn the tv on all day, thank you!)

It's all a big mind #*!> ladies. We are doing all the time. We don't acknowledge it is all. Sure I was doing things, but I wasn't doing anything VALUABLE. Ah. Now we have it. Everything was necessary, and even lunch out was nice, but it wasn't what I was wanting to do-or what I was feeling like I was supposed to be was fill in the blank stuff...sorry Jon, but you know it too. We were only eating out to kill the time waiting for the tires to get balanced.

Anyone else doing that? Filling in the blank with mindless, senseless, busyiness?
So what is this prevailing feeling that there is a something that is just out of our reach and realization?

I did everything including eating ice cream, to avoid nailing it down. And cook! I told Kathy I have actually cooked full 4 course dinners for, 6 nights in a row!!! Now you know if I am cooking again, there has to be something deeply disturbing going on beneath the waters...

oh btw-picture isn't one of mine-just one I thought was cool and that you would all like. And the birds have laid more eggs in the nest! Is that unheard of? Do they do that all year? I never noticed last year.

on love and being

so true joy about the 'doing' drama dilemma...ive been sitting and staring out my window for days just being and ive never felt guilt no shame...i feel so much love in my heart right now its infinite and expansive and everyone around me seems to be blossoming and growing and glowing and i feel so grateful to be a witness to it all...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

John of Cincinnati

This has got to be one of the more original scripts and cast of characters in a long time. I can honestly say that I have done just about nothing since about 2pm today except watch one episode after another of John of Cincinnati - until now. I love to watch a series that way anyway because you really get the character and plot development.

A friend called and said "what are you doing?" and I was at a loss for words. It was hard to admit my lack of productivity, you know? I realized we are so programmed to be DOING something, that there was a wave of guilt that washed over me. Just sitting for most of the day??? Doing nothing? Nope-not even folding clean laundry, or making jewelry, or shredding junk mail...I did NOTHING but watch John of Cincinnati.

If you get a it ON DEMAND or on Monday nights. It's got levitation, miracle heaings, redemption from drugs, from porn, from failure, from death, alien visitations, lots of mystery and strangeness. I love it! And a psycho raving she bitch for a matriarch! What a meaty role that is! SHE smokes, rants, throws and stomps on things, and the Patriarch...vege eating, meditating, non smoking...levitating...surfer dude. Hah! What a twist on an old theme that is.

"This is the process whereby pain of the past in its pastness / May be converted into the future tense / Of joy." Robert Penn Warren

Sunday, August 12, 2007


"We are all creative, but by the time we are three of four years old, someone has knocked the creativity out of us. Some people shut up the kids who start to tell stories. Kids dance in their cribs, but someone will insist they sit still. By the time the creative people are ten or twelve, they want to be like everyone else." -- Maya Angelou

We need to remember to applaud the differences within ourselves and nurture the light in each other. We all shine!

Star Bright

Last night Jon Tony and I went out on the roof, and saw about 4 "falling" stars each at 11pm. No where near the 60 an hour that is predicted for tonight but certainly a few to entertain us, and excite us about tonight.

Yes Bo-the plan here is to go out tonight and stare upward, turn faces to the "heavens" and get quiet. It's about connecting with something that is above and beyond us and yet a macro expression of what is going on inside us.

Sweet stargazing-I might even inspire T to get out the telescope that has lain dormant in the never knows!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Rock Thoughts

This is a closeup of some of the beautiful nature I was telling you about...lots of rocks...everywhere you and rocks and rocks...big rocks...little rocks...gravel...sand...and here and there a cactus...

The Temples of Humankind - DAMANHUR


Prepare to have your breath taken away with the beauty, majesty, artistry, imagination and creation of something stupendous!
Take a look at what is going on in Italy-

click on
Hall of Mirrors
Hall of Water
Hall of Spheres...

well ALL of them are breathtakingly beautiful!
FIELD TRIP anyone???

This is a sustainable community of 20 different groups, BTW...called THE FEDERATION OF DANANHUR this what some of us have been dreaming about? Could be!

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

some thoughts...

so ive been working away non-stop on my apartment my muscles are killing me from dragging stuff up and down the stairs...

ive been thinking a lot about many things...i guess the sorting and cleaning have been bringing things up...i found a box of my dads letters to me and pictures the other day and i just lost really lost it deep heaving sobs snot everywhere loud screams suprised my neighbors didnt barge in to see what was happening...anyway it felt really good, but it was so intense. its amazing how one incident changes you your life the way you think feel eat breathe sleep...his death changed everything for me and ive been on this 2 + yr journey now and im not sure where im going or whats going on really...i just know that i cant go back to the way i was or the way things were...i feel like ive been on a holding pattern for these past years sort of quietly growing and redefining and learning what it means to be this new person...i can see clearly all of these options in front of me but i still see the old ones, the ones that i used to love the ones that meant everything to me but they are different in a way....each time i try to pick up something from then its no good, it just seems like something that belongs to that time, old me...its a little bit of a battle in my heart...there are things i loved deeply pre-dads-death...i just feel so different i am so different noe...i dont know...

i know this is all just mind chatter and things are ok, im fine im healthy my family is ok i have people and friends that are amazing and love me and i know how to be happy and feel good - i think i just dont exactly know whats next i feel like i have a huge blocker in front of me - and i know its almost gone and im about to break through - so im just trying to go still and let it go...

last night i thought how can i leave my apartment? i love it here - i spent the evening on the roof with some wine and looking over at the other people on their roofs - it was grey and about to rain and morning doves were cooing right beside me - and the inside of my apartment is gorgeous ive fixed it up wonderfully --- i think this is my quandry

1) put more money into apt. to fix it the way i want it and finish the renovation. really commit
2) get out before putting more money into it. find something new.

this is sort of a theme ive got going on...

i can see it both ways and both ways feel sure the answer will just appear and until then i am working away on designs for the farm....another option has been just to go to costa rica and dive in there....which i can do to and i can also see working wonderfully....

so here i am just sorting and sorting and allowing it all to come up....going to dinner tonight with an old friend from my raw culinary experience and i think i will get some new answers tonight in fact i feel it....

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

All's Quiet

Well you all have been really really quiet while I was gone! Not much to catch up on! I'll post some amazing pictures of the desert. It's a really beautiful landscape-immediate and primal. I could get to love it.

It was 114 while we were there. But you know, for the most part, given a pool, air conditioning, and ceiling fans in every room, it's not half bad! My skin felt BETTER--guess it's the lack of salt. So, thumbs up to the desert life.

BTW-Thumbs DOWN to Lohan's new movie-"I know who killed me". Trash. Don't bother-even on video. It's a waste of time and a waste of money. I should have gone to see RATATOUILLE instead. There is always tomorrow!

Monday, August 6, 2007


Hi guys sorry Ive been so absent on the blog...its been a very intense few weeks and im feeling like I have had to go inward to adjust to all of the changes...things are happing so fast and Im trying to hold on and ride the waves at the same time...I finished my 28 day Waka that I began on 7/7/7 this past saturday...I had gone to my mesa every day and worked on the issue of committment...since I began the Waka things have gone all said I did have to let go of outcome and I have but its all super fast Im not even sure I realize entirely whats gone on these past 28....I also feel like being very quiet and dont have a lot of words right now so that also explains the sort of silence...I havent returned any calls or emails or anything really....I feel like a hermit...but in feels like Im birthing something new for the next transition and more permanent much shedding of old an new coming in so fast but in pieces....

anyway I am thinking about you guys and hopefully will be out again in september...until then Im packing my apt with intention still to sell....Im just letting go and seeing what happens....I dont know exactly whats next where I go who knows...I just know that I have to keep working on the farm....

Love to you guys!

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Green and Fruit Juice Smoothie

Here it is, my new favorite smoothie, and you can get some greens in too
1 cucumber
3 stalks celery
1/2 papaya
1/2 mango

throw all this in the vitajuicer!
I used to juice the veges and then add the juice to the fruit, but the vitajuicer is so strong I just eliminated that extra step and cleanup.

You can get bags of fresh frozen mango, and you can get papaya cut up in tubs at Costco to make this easier.

Green juice heaven

Yes, it's similar to the last one I made and loved.
Here's the recipe for that too:

handful of spinach
handful of parsley
4 romaine leaves
3 stalks celery
1/2 cucumber
1 lime
1 apple