I love being woken up up early...Ive been up for a while now after this amazing dream and Ive just been working away...
I think Ive realized that I need to feel completely free...any amount of pressure begins to build on me and starts to cause stress and my body just shuts down....I dont mean I need to be alone floating without a cord, just that I have always worked best lived best loved best am most calm most happy healthy when I feel like this....I used to think I could only feel like this with certain people or in certain places...I knew it was me, but it didnt actually truly sink in until yesterday that literally it is ME. Its my attitude my feelings...of course there are people places and things that make me feel stressed and stifled or calm and free but for the most part its my reaction and my abiility to hold center....in my center is a free woman that can be that way anwhere anytime....but she forgets that!!!
anyway this may have all been obvious to you guys and subconsciously it was for me but yesterday I consciously got it between the eyes......! Now I just have to remember it and hold it!!
off to do more work!
2 comments:
I've tried really hard to reduce pressure in my life. I've been lucky to have jobs that weren't super high pressure jobs. Or if they were I moved on. I've managed to avoid a lot of relationship pressure taking myself out of that arena. Even with friends if things get to be too much, I have no trouble walking away. I'm either a really low acheiver or just very allergic to pressure. Maybe that's why I never had kids, seems like a high pressure situation to me.
I'm not saying we are similar in these ways, I'm just saying I really hate pressure too and I've made choices purposefully to avoid pressure.
Thanks for sharing! :)
I've done pressure, and not pressure. I choose no pressure. WHo needs it? It's overrated-being able to handle pressure. What fun is that?
I vote for fun.
BTW I am loving spending the abudnance checks. IF you haven't done this, try it. Very fun game.
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