Foods that encourage hormonal balance are garbanzo beans, lentils, mung beans (and sprouts), aduki, and the whole grains. Flax seed too. Are you eating beans and grains? Well we really aren't because beans are better cooked-and grains too. So unless you are eating alot of sprouts, this could be part of your hormonal fluctuations.
Phytoestrogens-foods that block the estrogen receptors in our cells and tell our body we are cool with the estrogens are:
Coffee
Soy, Licorice, Red clover tea, Thyme, and Turmeric were said to be the strongest, in one study.
Alfalfa, Sunflower seeds, Fennel, Oregano, Nutmeg, Cloves, Goldenseal, Camomille, Verbenna, Hops (beer), Turmeric - remember when I was dreaming about turmeric and didn't know why?
Pomegranate - the Greeks used this as a contraceptive because it is such a strong phytoestrogen.
This is one of the reasons to add more spices to your foods.
Other good foods for us:
Coconut oil, Flaxseed oil, Nuts, Pumpkin seeds, Hemp seed oil is a balance of 3/6/9 as is UDOS.
Anything in the Cabbage family: broccoli, caulliflower, brussel sprouts, cabbages because they increase the rate at which the liver changes oestrogen into a water soluble form that can be excreted. All the oil rich foods-like fishes Jac, which may be exactly why you are craving it.
When we register a fluctuation in our moods, we get irritable, short tempered, anxious, edgy, it means that there are HIGH levels of oestrogens in our bloodstream in relation to our progesterone. If your breasts suddenly feel really tender-your estrogen is high in relation to our progesterone. If you start to get food cravings for sugar-high estrogen.
Reduced levels of progesterone could be due to the liver being unable to process out the excess estrogen in our systems. We get fuzzy thinking, heart palpitations, water retention, food cravings for sugar-we are estrogen high in relation to progesterone. It's all a balancing act.
Magnesium helps, B6, B complex, red clover tea, licorice to calm the adrenals (NOT with high blood pressure please). I've just started adding magnesium.
Progesterone stimulates the healing process in connective tissue/bones and skin, and prevents collagen breakdown (like stretchmarks), and it stimulates bone growth. Good things. Ah but when we are getting hot flashes, having dips in our energy, feel depressed, or are noticing connective tissue stuff going on (joint stuff) we could be low in progesterone. See?
Soybeans and yams are what progesterone is chemically identical to in our body. And if you use a progesterone cream it makes you sleepy-I put mine on at night for that reason.
20% of our progesterone comes from our ovaries and the rest from your adrenals. When you are flooding, you don't have any progesterone to oppose the estrogen. Estrogen gets your uterus to thicken and when estrogen levels hit a certain level you ovulate, and progesterone to heal and maintain the "pregnancy". Progesterone also stabilizes the lining of the uterus-so it will help stop flooding.
Estrogens are produced by the fat cells and the adrenals. No wonder we have more estrogen than progesterone...So estrogen stimulates tissue growth, and progesterone signals the body to slough it off.
We make 3 types of estrogen, and only 1 progesterone. Too much estrogen in relation to the progesterone in your system-and we get fibroids. Progesterone will shrink them. Progesterone is your happy hormone! It's the feel good hormone, and it keeps the estrogen in check for most of us.
EVERY CELL has estrogen receptors. If our adrenals are pumping out cortisol, if we are under alot of stress, our body in its infinite wisdom, will DIVERT progesterone to make the cortisol...then we don't have enough progesterone to oppose the rising levels of estrogen. And stress triggers estrogen overproduction.
Guess what else progesterone does? It converts fat to energy. It metabolizes glucose. If we are low in progesterone, we gain weight, and have trouble losing it. Now some of us pears are naturally highly estrogenic...but you know I don't think so! I think we are naturally lower in progesterone. Same same...but why?
Low progesterone effects thyroid function! Imagine that! Low thyroid function, low progesterone. Big thighs-estrogen dominance by the way. Hey, what a surprise. And cramping means high estrogen.
Even if we are low in estrogen, we can have estrogen dominance because of the overall ratio to progesterone! So, even if you are done with menopause, if you ratios are off it could still be hormonal.
HOT FLASHES-sluggish liver. And you might want to avoid ginger if you are getting hot flashes...try it and see if it helps.
MENOPAUSE means a drop in progesterone, and without progesterone to oppose all that estrogen-the estrogen levels go up, hence the typical "mood swings" everyone talks about.
IRREGULAR PERIODS means stressed system and means a hormonal imbalance
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Back on Raw
I can say I'm fully back on raw!
It's funny but the dance back and forth is hard on my system. I stay on raw food, and I feel amazing! My energy is up, I sleep well, I wake up early.
I dabble in cooked food, and specifically protein, and I feel off. Sluggish, running a bit slower, and eventually my sleep is off again.
What tempts me to stray: when the weather gets colder I want HOT something to warm me up. Comfort me on the inside. Temperature seems to feel satisfying.
When I am tired or bored, or when I don't have anything ready to go, veges cleaned and waiting, I want to reach for something else. (this is happening less and less I will say, but the desire to fall back into the old pattern of thoughtless eating is there.)
Really, these are almost exactly what used to tempt me off of any "diet" really. Thinking about it, anytime I attempted a change in habitual eating patterns the moment of truth would come when I would decide to continue or to 'take a break'. The break usually meant I didn't get back on for awhile-or ever.
An old time consumate dieter, I have to remind myself this is NOT about dieting, NOT about deprivation, NOT about have tos, NOT about counting, measuring, weighing, NOT about denying myself anything. This is my choice, I feel great, and I want to continue.
It is all about feeding myself completely. The longer I do this, and I am looking at close to the end of 5 mns now, the easier it gets. My kitchen is primarily raw food now, the grocery cart gets filled with fresh raw beautiful stuff. The kitchen equipment has changed, and my countertop look has shifted. My husband and son are joining me some, which is more than I expected!
So, when I do get off base, what is it that triggers it? What could be more important than my health, strength, stamina, and joy? The answer should be nothing, but that isn't the case, is it.
But what if it isn't emotional-strictly speaking? What if it is biochemical? What if those emotions too, are biochemical?
It's funny but the dance back and forth is hard on my system. I stay on raw food, and I feel amazing! My energy is up, I sleep well, I wake up early.
I dabble in cooked food, and specifically protein, and I feel off. Sluggish, running a bit slower, and eventually my sleep is off again.
What tempts me to stray: when the weather gets colder I want HOT something to warm me up. Comfort me on the inside. Temperature seems to feel satisfying.
When I am tired or bored, or when I don't have anything ready to go, veges cleaned and waiting, I want to reach for something else. (this is happening less and less I will say, but the desire to fall back into the old pattern of thoughtless eating is there.)
Really, these are almost exactly what used to tempt me off of any "diet" really. Thinking about it, anytime I attempted a change in habitual eating patterns the moment of truth would come when I would decide to continue or to 'take a break'. The break usually meant I didn't get back on for awhile-or ever.
An old time consumate dieter, I have to remind myself this is NOT about dieting, NOT about deprivation, NOT about have tos, NOT about counting, measuring, weighing, NOT about denying myself anything. This is my choice, I feel great, and I want to continue.
It is all about feeding myself completely. The longer I do this, and I am looking at close to the end of 5 mns now, the easier it gets. My kitchen is primarily raw food now, the grocery cart gets filled with fresh raw beautiful stuff. The kitchen equipment has changed, and my countertop look has shifted. My husband and son are joining me some, which is more than I expected!
So, when I do get off base, what is it that triggers it? What could be more important than my health, strength, stamina, and joy? The answer should be nothing, but that isn't the case, is it.
But what if it isn't emotional-strictly speaking? What if it is biochemical? What if those emotions too, are biochemical?
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
WOW.
Itll be a bit before I can actually verbalize what Im doing here....pretty much all I can say is wow. Today was day 2 of dissection and I have to say the body is just the most amazing beautiful infinite' thing' for lack of a better term. I am discovering and seeing it all so differently - when I just went in to do healings on the site I was seeing amazing things but I got that the work hasnt integrated yet from class so I am going to integrate and then see what happens...
I took lunch break today and walked and sat in the park overlooking san francisco and ate some organic snap peas and strawberries (produce here is SO much better I have to say the whole foods has such a huge ethnic variety of fruits and veggies....I guess also because we are coming close to summer everything looks so appealing....). Anyway I was really taking the time to allow what I was seeing to sink in...making the connections between what I was physically witnessing and doing, and what I 'see' and what the new link is....
WOW.
I took lunch break today and walked and sat in the park overlooking san francisco and ate some organic snap peas and strawberries (produce here is SO much better I have to say the whole foods has such a huge ethnic variety of fruits and veggies....I guess also because we are coming close to summer everything looks so appealing....). Anyway I was really taking the time to allow what I was seeing to sink in...making the connections between what I was physically witnessing and doing, and what I 'see' and what the new link is....
WOW.
Love all the Energy!
I love all the energy everyone has and is expressing! It's so exciting! It jumps off the page and vibrates! The art, the creativity, the information, the direction, all so powerful!
Something has shifted in you ALL!
Something has shifted in you ALL!
Monday, April 23, 2007
My Raw Evolution
I just ran across an interesting web page that you all may want to read: My Raw Evolution.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Church Bells
Listening to the bells at Grace Cathedral this morning in San Francisco...wanted to share it with you all...
Had very intense sweats last night, Im getting my period and my body is detoxing a lot. I have a very intense sweat a few nights before I get my period its amazing though....it feels really good...I love sweating - reminds me of how much I loved Bikram Yoga....I think Im ready to start it again...!
Been back on raw...ahhhh home....
Also very excited for my class tomorrow....not sure if I have internet where Ill be staying but I will find some and keep you posted on what I see/find on the deep inside!
Had very intense sweats last night, Im getting my period and my body is detoxing a lot. I have a very intense sweat a few nights before I get my period its amazing though....it feels really good...I love sweating - reminds me of how much I loved Bikram Yoga....I think Im ready to start it again...!
Been back on raw...ahhhh home....
Also very excited for my class tomorrow....not sure if I have internet where Ill be staying but I will find some and keep you posted on what I see/find on the deep inside!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Educating the Public
So I was in Good Earth getting a few things. I'm getting raw cashews and this older woman is standing in the middle of the bulk area-and she's muttering to herself and shaking her head.
I smiled.
She said "this all so confuses me! Do you do this? But I'm going to try." I wondered why but didn't ask.
I smiled again. "Take it in small chunks, add something like fresh juice, and start there."
She looked at my cart at the tray of wheatgrass and said "What is that? What do you do with it?"
I explained about juicing, and she asked what it does for you, and I went into my tirade on the benefits of wheatgrass. She looked surprised, a bit dazed still, but nodding too. Then I realized that Good Earth now sells wheat grass shots for just 99 cents. I suggested she try it. Just one ounce.
You know there just isn't enough education yet and I am so excited to get this all going!
And another thing-I made the absolute worst dinner for poor T that I have ever made since I was a teen! I tried to make scallops. I used to know how to do this, and he valiantlly tried to eat it, but I have to say I threw the whole lot out with mutual agreement that it deserved the bin. I don't do that often.
I can't remember how to cook! THen I was boiling sweet potatoes and the pot boiled over. I don't do that cooked thing very well at all anymore! On the up side, I'm glad the dinner got thrown out. I've been raw all day now! :)
I smiled.
She said "this all so confuses me! Do you do this? But I'm going to try." I wondered why but didn't ask.
I smiled again. "Take it in small chunks, add something like fresh juice, and start there."
She looked at my cart at the tray of wheatgrass and said "What is that? What do you do with it?"
I explained about juicing, and she asked what it does for you, and I went into my tirade on the benefits of wheatgrass. She looked surprised, a bit dazed still, but nodding too. Then I realized that Good Earth now sells wheat grass shots for just 99 cents. I suggested she try it. Just one ounce.
You know there just isn't enough education yet and I am so excited to get this all going!
And another thing-I made the absolute worst dinner for poor T that I have ever made since I was a teen! I tried to make scallops. I used to know how to do this, and he valiantlly tried to eat it, but I have to say I threw the whole lot out with mutual agreement that it deserved the bin. I don't do that often.
I can't remember how to cook! THen I was boiling sweet potatoes and the pot boiled over. I don't do that cooked thing very well at all anymore! On the up side, I'm glad the dinner got thrown out. I've been raw all day now! :)
Friday, April 20, 2007
The Energetic Connections of a Group
This week in class everyone did a soul retrieval for someone else. You just did yours too. There are no accidents, and there is syncronicity especially between members of an energetic alliance.
And you are definitely a member even at that distance.
I KNOW you care about being clearly heard, seen and represented as your authentic powerful self.
We all care. That is exactly what we are trying to clear our way TO, once again, and the imprints of the wounds of misunderstandings are in the way of our authentic powerful feminine selves.
AND we are talking about coming out into the world with a huge project. We want to be clear. We want to be understood. We want to be accepted and authentic. We want to have fun. We want to be brilliant and amazing and stupendous and, did I say we want to have fun?!
Why did everyone back up after Bear Lake? Why did we start stepping here and there away from raw? Precisely BECAUSE there were still the deepest imprints in the way. It was close. It is! Lauren, even you stepped back from raw this month.
I also know you WANT to be understood, and you WANT to be heard, and thank you for being the one to hold that mirror up for the group, Lauren. CA had a nightmare, Jac seems to have had a breakthrough too, and I hope she posts it.
If I sounded harsh yesterday it was to get that point across, and well done to you all. A little pot stirring on my part- perhaps.
The speed writing-absolutely necessary-especially for us because we are working on allowing that flow. It is invaluable, and Lauren, let yourself have it, and PAM practice it absolutely! That is what morning pages are about. Allowing that flow of what is inside to come out without editing. To teach us to bring what is inside, up and out. But those writings are for YOU.
Then post the results of that on the blog where you want to be clearly heard, seen and understood, in your power as QUEEN. Look at what you found, and then post your own understanding of self, of process, of the world. The other-does your intelligence, expression and passion a disservice.
You aren't a performing wind up perfect dolly to entertain others. Clear that imprint. You also don't have to be physically ill or throwing a tantrum to prove that you aren't perfect. You don't have to be fist flying angry to be visible. BE YOU!
I did the same. My weight was a way of saying LOOK AT WHO I REALLY AM because I got so tired of people telling me when I was little
1) that I was scarred and would never be Miss America
and then later as a teen and a young adult- (and I forgot this until just recently which is absolutely fascinating to ME)
2) that I was beautiful
which I also rebelled against.
Isn't it ALL about self acceptance?
ALL of our anger, self recrimination and resentment of the WORLD out there, is only a reflection of what is going on inside, and our own struggle to own and be authentic.
I think Maya Angelou does morning pages where she lets it rip. Then she goes back in and hones the pearls with precision. Is she disservicing herself by presenting the pearls and not the regurgitation of angst? What do you think?
When we blew out the archetypes IN CLASS Lauren, (and you haven't done that exercise formally, we will when you get here)you are left with just you. Then what? Where do you hide youself, and how can you distract yourself from facing you? DO we want to still hide from ourselves?
The pieces that come up this week and last week are probably some of the most profound.
Jacquie was still fighting stepping into those archetypes that were gifted back to her when in class this week. She wouldn't open that mesa, wouldn't confront them, own them, integrate them, preferrring the "other mesa". Not "that one"But she wanted it too. No one is holding it away from her but her. No one is taking it, no one is stopping her from having it-except her.
She was still wanting to run the belief that she isn't allowedto be valuable. Doesn't have, isn't enougheven when family, siblings, parents, spouse, children, the world was blown out...
Another project is awesome, but the conflict is about having to have another project to then feel like she is valuable enough. Jac you are beautiful, valuable and an incredible asset to the group. Why can't your amazing project be part of what is growing-wholly yours-you wearing and owning and directing it-and still within the scope of Shamamamas?
We only want any of you to offer yourself as you are, in the capacity that delights you. And thanks once again to Rebecca, so invalubale and indispensable to the group still and always.
Thank you Jacquie for demonstrating this piece to the group!
Now to everyone-can you find and heal the piece inside you that you are running from too?
Are you still using your DOINGness to prove your value, your worth, your contribution, to the world?
"See-I AM right! See-I AM valuable, I Am smart, I AM brilliant, I AM...what do you disown that you can and must call back to yourself-that is a soul retrieval!"
And you are definitely a member even at that distance.
I KNOW you care about being clearly heard, seen and represented as your authentic powerful self.
We all care. That is exactly what we are trying to clear our way TO, once again, and the imprints of the wounds of misunderstandings are in the way of our authentic powerful feminine selves.
AND we are talking about coming out into the world with a huge project. We want to be clear. We want to be understood. We want to be accepted and authentic. We want to have fun. We want to be brilliant and amazing and stupendous and, did I say we want to have fun?!
Why did everyone back up after Bear Lake? Why did we start stepping here and there away from raw? Precisely BECAUSE there were still the deepest imprints in the way. It was close. It is! Lauren, even you stepped back from raw this month.
I also know you WANT to be understood, and you WANT to be heard, and thank you for being the one to hold that mirror up for the group, Lauren. CA had a nightmare, Jac seems to have had a breakthrough too, and I hope she posts it.
If I sounded harsh yesterday it was to get that point across, and well done to you all. A little pot stirring on my part- perhaps.
The speed writing-absolutely necessary-especially for us because we are working on allowing that flow. It is invaluable, and Lauren, let yourself have it, and PAM practice it absolutely! That is what morning pages are about. Allowing that flow of what is inside to come out without editing. To teach us to bring what is inside, up and out. But those writings are for YOU.
Then post the results of that on the blog where you want to be clearly heard, seen and understood, in your power as QUEEN. Look at what you found, and then post your own understanding of self, of process, of the world. The other-does your intelligence, expression and passion a disservice.
You aren't a performing wind up perfect dolly to entertain others. Clear that imprint. You also don't have to be physically ill or throwing a tantrum to prove that you aren't perfect. You don't have to be fist flying angry to be visible. BE YOU!
I did the same. My weight was a way of saying LOOK AT WHO I REALLY AM because I got so tired of people telling me when I was little
1) that I was scarred and would never be Miss America
and then later as a teen and a young adult- (and I forgot this until just recently which is absolutely fascinating to ME)
2) that I was beautiful
which I also rebelled against.
Isn't it ALL about self acceptance?
ALL of our anger, self recrimination and resentment of the WORLD out there, is only a reflection of what is going on inside, and our own struggle to own and be authentic.
I think Maya Angelou does morning pages where she lets it rip. Then she goes back in and hones the pearls with precision. Is she disservicing herself by presenting the pearls and not the regurgitation of angst? What do you think?
When we blew out the archetypes IN CLASS Lauren, (and you haven't done that exercise formally, we will when you get here)you are left with just you. Then what? Where do you hide youself, and how can you distract yourself from facing you? DO we want to still hide from ourselves?
The pieces that come up this week and last week are probably some of the most profound.
Jacquie was still fighting stepping into those archetypes that were gifted back to her when in class this week. She wouldn't open that mesa, wouldn't confront them, own them, integrate them, preferrring the "other mesa". Not "that one"But she wanted it too. No one is holding it away from her but her. No one is taking it, no one is stopping her from having it-except her.
She was still wanting to run the belief that she isn't allowedto be valuable. Doesn't have, isn't enougheven when family, siblings, parents, spouse, children, the world was blown out...
Another project is awesome, but the conflict is about having to have another project to then feel like she is valuable enough. Jac you are beautiful, valuable and an incredible asset to the group. Why can't your amazing project be part of what is growing-wholly yours-you wearing and owning and directing it-and still within the scope of Shamamamas?
We only want any of you to offer yourself as you are, in the capacity that delights you. And thanks once again to Rebecca, so invalubale and indispensable to the group still and always.
Thank you Jacquie for demonstrating this piece to the group!
Now to everyone-can you find and heal the piece inside you that you are running from too?
Are you still using your DOINGness to prove your value, your worth, your contribution, to the world?
"See-I AM right! See-I AM valuable, I Am smart, I AM brilliant, I AM...what do you disown that you can and must call back to yourself-that is a soul retrieval!"
Paying attention
For a few weeks now Ive ben saying I feel something major coming up...my dreams have been bizarre, different themes, people, places. I forgot that I had asked to get many teaching in my dreams so I didnt have to 'act' them out and spin out in real world. I could get the lesson and clear it. Before I went to bed last night I put it all together.
Theres been this mysterious image, a memory from childhood thats been floating around. Something so clear of me at 2 in my parent office in a hallway with a man I knew leaning down and a crowd of employees around me. Last night before I closed my eyes (with the help of yesterdays 'spinning out') I saw it all... I made the connection between what these strange dreams were showing me, and these signs all around me that I couldnt quite connect yet. Even re-reading my posts yesterday...it was ALL there hitting me between the eyes!
That one mysterious image had locked in one of the most deep rooted and major patterns in my life - I was standing there 2 yrs old I opened my mouth to finally say something after they had been begging (the 'expectation') saying 'come on precious say something' (ooooh did I shudder when I heard that as clear as a bell last night) and then everyone laughed. Like a performing clown, the bosses 'perfect daughter' and expectation...
There are NO coincidences. I have been watching this reflected in my 2 yr old niece - who could be a mirror of me at 2. Ive been watching everything with her almost obsessed watching her edit her behavior modify it for others to improve the reaction...I see it all in her face and I still didnt catch it until I felt that feeling yesterday with the blog and then like magic it all clicked. So I wanted to share.
That moment at 2yrs old locked in a very deep pattern:
Embarrasment
Rejection
Shame
Abandonment
and my reaction which was: (all D's)
Disguise
Distract/Deflect
Disassociate
Disconnect
Amazing...I knew something was there but its timing I guess...
Theres been this mysterious image, a memory from childhood thats been floating around. Something so clear of me at 2 in my parent office in a hallway with a man I knew leaning down and a crowd of employees around me. Last night before I closed my eyes (with the help of yesterdays 'spinning out') I saw it all... I made the connection between what these strange dreams were showing me, and these signs all around me that I couldnt quite connect yet. Even re-reading my posts yesterday...it was ALL there hitting me between the eyes!
That one mysterious image had locked in one of the most deep rooted and major patterns in my life - I was standing there 2 yrs old I opened my mouth to finally say something after they had been begging (the 'expectation') saying 'come on precious say something' (ooooh did I shudder when I heard that as clear as a bell last night) and then everyone laughed. Like a performing clown, the bosses 'perfect daughter' and expectation...
There are NO coincidences. I have been watching this reflected in my 2 yr old niece - who could be a mirror of me at 2. Ive been watching everything with her almost obsessed watching her edit her behavior modify it for others to improve the reaction...I see it all in her face and I still didnt catch it until I felt that feeling yesterday with the blog and then like magic it all clicked. So I wanted to share.
That moment at 2yrs old locked in a very deep pattern:
Embarrasment
Rejection
Shame
Abandonment
and my reaction which was: (all D's)
Disguise
Distract/Deflect
Disassociate
Disconnect
Amazing...I knew something was there but its timing I guess...
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Self-Editing/Clarity
What happened today?
Simply put I spun out.
So again, apologies for the lengthiness and redundancy and terrible writing form - (my teachers would be horrified) and for the confusing mess of thoughts and words. If you zoom down to my when the honeymoons over post (which ive edited)- you'll see i mentioned this 'distraction' thing that happens when im in the in-between.
:( DISTRACTION = not good)
I have been working on my 'self-edit button' before I edited everything...now I am editing nothing and I know there is a happy medium...just working on getting there. I think it just clicked in. So thank you.
Ive edited and reposted below, to be more clear.
Hope that helps.
Be back on track soon. Cleared a really really big deep rooted piece today thats been tingling all week. Not a good feeling for me....Brings up old feelings of embarrassment and projecting and general 'losing it-ness' in a group which makes me feel really crappy. Nothing that a little sleep and some raw food wont cure!
Thank goodness for the actual EDIT button. And for friends with patience.
XOXO
Simply put I spun out.
So again, apologies for the lengthiness and redundancy and terrible writing form - (my teachers would be horrified) and for the confusing mess of thoughts and words. If you zoom down to my when the honeymoons over post (which ive edited)- you'll see i mentioned this 'distraction' thing that happens when im in the in-between.
:( DISTRACTION = not good)
I have been working on my 'self-edit button' before I edited everything...now I am editing nothing and I know there is a happy medium...just working on getting there. I think it just clicked in. So thank you.
Ive edited and reposted below, to be more clear.
Hope that helps.
Be back on track soon. Cleared a really really big deep rooted piece today thats been tingling all week. Not a good feeling for me....Brings up old feelings of embarrassment and projecting and general 'losing it-ness' in a group which makes me feel really crappy. Nothing that a little sleep and some raw food wont cure!
Thank goodness for the actual EDIT button. And for friends with patience.
XOXO
Back from the land of the rocks
Whoa! I have to tell you that it took me an entire hour to read the blog – and that’s just today’s entries. Do you see the agonized face in the picture that is desperate to be released? Screaming, yelling, and kicking with one foot. Is this symbolic of all of us, frozen in time? Talk about not stepping into our power! Do we all have rocks in the head?
I, for one, plan on taking a sledge hammer to the stone and breaking out. I don’t want to do it alone. I love being in a group, this group, even though there are times when creative solitude is necessary for my rejuvenation and peace of mind.
As for this blog, I’m more than a little bit sentimental and want to see it continue. I was just planning on sending this link to a friend who was asking about raw. There is no better way to enlighten her than to have her look at the archives, follow the links, and read the stories each of us have been willing to share in the last three months. That doesn’t mean I promise to post to it daily, but I’ll post when I have something to offer, be it good or bad.
This raw experience has been the catalyst for growth – raw food, raw feelings, all of it a raw evolution. We have so much to offer ourselves and the world, Lady Shamans, and the breakout time is now -- so let's start stepping.
I, for one, plan on taking a sledge hammer to the stone and breaking out. I don’t want to do it alone. I love being in a group, this group, even though there are times when creative solitude is necessary for my rejuvenation and peace of mind.
As for this blog, I’m more than a little bit sentimental and want to see it continue. I was just planning on sending this link to a friend who was asking about raw. There is no better way to enlighten her than to have her look at the archives, follow the links, and read the stories each of us have been willing to share in the last three months. That doesn’t mean I promise to post to it daily, but I’ll post when I have something to offer, be it good or bad.
This raw experience has been the catalyst for growth – raw food, raw feelings, all of it a raw evolution. We have so much to offer ourselves and the world, Lady Shamans, and the breakout time is now -- so let's start stepping.
a line i heard somewhere...
something that goes like:
i love knowing it all including that i dont know shit...!
a bit how i feel today--well more or less everday!
hee hee
i love knowing it all including that i dont know shit...!
a bit how i feel today--well more or less everday!
hee hee
Here's Susanne's article
Arthurian Tarot: The Grail Lance, Percival
Mayan Oracle: Greater Cycles, Ben
Aleister Crowley: Pleasure, Debauch, Peace
Medicine Cards: Ant, Whale
Osho Zen Tarot: We are the World, Sharing
Healing Earth Tarot: Eight of Crystals, Grandmother of Pipes
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: The Lovers, Princess of Swords
Words of Truth: Elimination, Nurturing, Breakthrough
If you feel that you just managed to survive the intensity of March, then the feelings of April will be breakthrough and a renewed sense of purpose. March brought with those eclipses the emotional roller coaster of death and rebirth. Now you have found an inner strength that could only come from being challenged and taken beyond the previous limitations of your consciousness.
March was painful and stressful for many, but now mental activity increases and spiritual strength allows you to rise to a new potential. Most of the gains will be accomplished by finding original ways of thinking. Following old stale ideas will leave you breaking down and trapped in an inhospitable environment.
The Grail Lance was called the Lance of Redemption. It had the power to heal, avenge, and bring rebirth to the earth. It is appropriate that this symbol comes in this spread for April and springtime.
With April, the energy bursts forth. This is no time to feel insecure or allow the mind to talk you out of acting in accord with the new situation. You are called to embrace optimism and allow innocent, infectious energy to broaden your horizons.
But before you become a knight, you must be a squire. You are beginning the path that eventually leads you out of situations that have blocked your potential, but only at the beginning. You have many details yet to accomplish, so stay aware and alert.
April is about celebration. Life has been given to us to create, rejoice, and to celebrate. When you fall into despair and misery, you tend to feel alone. When you celebrate life in any way, the whole of existence participates with you. In joy, we find our true light and our eternal self. Celebration takes us beyond the circles of death into life eternal. When you celebrate, there are no feelings of inferiority or superiority. We see our hopes and dreams reflected in all around us. Through that connection, new patterns of exquisite creation are possible.
Creation takes time, effort, and the ability to adapt to the evolving circumstances.
It is natural to have moments of fear, but do not allow them to take over your reality and cause you to break down the new and delicate creation. Find the stillness inside and allow the growth to find good solid roots in this fertile soil of your life. Give yourself time to grow into the powerful knight that you know is within. You will have to take a few knocks, but only through trial and error will you gain confidence in the new perceptions and skills.
By talking to yourself in positive ways and allowing gentle and consistent growth, you will find yourself further along the path than you can imagine. This internal wisdom and acceptance of the difficulty of growth allows you to enjoy the process and celebrate that journey with others.
Mayan Oracle: Greater Cycles, Ben
Aleister Crowley: Pleasure, Debauch, Peace
Medicine Cards: Ant, Whale
Osho Zen Tarot: We are the World, Sharing
Healing Earth Tarot: Eight of Crystals, Grandmother of Pipes
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: The Lovers, Princess of Swords
Words of Truth: Elimination, Nurturing, Breakthrough
If you feel that you just managed to survive the intensity of March, then the feelings of April will be breakthrough and a renewed sense of purpose. March brought with those eclipses the emotional roller coaster of death and rebirth. Now you have found an inner strength that could only come from being challenged and taken beyond the previous limitations of your consciousness.
March was painful and stressful for many, but now mental activity increases and spiritual strength allows you to rise to a new potential. Most of the gains will be accomplished by finding original ways of thinking. Following old stale ideas will leave you breaking down and trapped in an inhospitable environment.
The Grail Lance was called the Lance of Redemption. It had the power to heal, avenge, and bring rebirth to the earth. It is appropriate that this symbol comes in this spread for April and springtime.
With April, the energy bursts forth. This is no time to feel insecure or allow the mind to talk you out of acting in accord with the new situation. You are called to embrace optimism and allow innocent, infectious energy to broaden your horizons.
But before you become a knight, you must be a squire. You are beginning the path that eventually leads you out of situations that have blocked your potential, but only at the beginning. You have many details yet to accomplish, so stay aware and alert.
April is about celebration. Life has been given to us to create, rejoice, and to celebrate. When you fall into despair and misery, you tend to feel alone. When you celebrate life in any way, the whole of existence participates with you. In joy, we find our true light and our eternal self. Celebration takes us beyond the circles of death into life eternal. When you celebrate, there are no feelings of inferiority or superiority. We see our hopes and dreams reflected in all around us. Through that connection, new patterns of exquisite creation are possible.
Creation takes time, effort, and the ability to adapt to the evolving circumstances.
It is natural to have moments of fear, but do not allow them to take over your reality and cause you to break down the new and delicate creation. Find the stillness inside and allow the growth to find good solid roots in this fertile soil of your life. Give yourself time to grow into the powerful knight that you know is within. You will have to take a few knocks, but only through trial and error will you gain confidence in the new perceptions and skills.
By talking to yourself in positive ways and allowing gentle and consistent growth, you will find yourself further along the path than you can imagine. This internal wisdom and acceptance of the difficulty of growth allows you to enjoy the process and celebrate that journey with others.
Clarification
Interesting what people heard last night. What I was trying to explain was that yes, this other piece has come up for me but that does not mean that I don't want to do both, that is why I asked can it be something that merges together. Then Joy, said I always want to keep in mind the Shamanic with the Raw, and thought it was clear obviously not. I am not bailing on the Raw I just wanted to tell you where I was conflicted not that I was trotting off just to do my own thing. Its no different than you teaching Joy, and doing the many other things that you do. Does that distract from the Raw. I am capable of doing two things at once. I just wanted to voice and say out loud what was going on with me. Sorry that you heard you thought I was bailing to go on to something else. THAT IS NOT THE CASE!!!!!!
So I will own the fact that I am serving a purpose for all of us to say what it is that we want. To get clear on the blog. I have been on the blog but just didn't have anything to say. I said on one of my comments today that I was just on an inhale where I am processing information...things going on, yes maybe I need to process more openly. If I can't identify it or at least get close to what is going on I am not too inclined to put it out there. I hadn't realized it had been that long since I posted anything. I thought I had made comments about what was being said. So just like we may be jumping to a conclusion that maybe you are tired of doing the blog. So look at what I have reflected for everyone. If like myself we have a pattern of people bailing on us I can see where a bailing message would be heard. I know I said the piece about doing a piece alone, but I think I need that for me, I think a lesson lays there but I also want to continue with the Raw. So bring it on...what did everyone else hear. It has brought up the mirror for us lets use it to get clear, hmmm. I admit I am not the most articulate in explaining what it is that I want to say. Speaking it out loud can trip me up. Yes, I need to clear that. So don't count me out....please....
I thought we were at a place where we could throw out what was going on the huge conflict was am I not on the same page if I am doing this other thing as well. In addition too. My feelings that I was not contributing to the business end because I could see Pam taking a huge load. I also recognize how much you do Joy, and in feeling like I am not doing enough comes from you two taking so much on. I have been looking at Grants today, local Grants.
I did surgery on my computer today and it hasn't gone down once so I look at that as a sign, that communication is now open. I own that I was not contributing much lately to the blog as far as posting but I have been there. I have been hitting the different Save the buttons.
So lets get this hashed out so we can move on upwards and outward...
I love you guys and I want to be clear about that.....
So I will own the fact that I am serving a purpose for all of us to say what it is that we want. To get clear on the blog. I have been on the blog but just didn't have anything to say. I said on one of my comments today that I was just on an inhale where I am processing information...things going on, yes maybe I need to process more openly. If I can't identify it or at least get close to what is going on I am not too inclined to put it out there. I hadn't realized it had been that long since I posted anything. I thought I had made comments about what was being said. So just like we may be jumping to a conclusion that maybe you are tired of doing the blog. So look at what I have reflected for everyone. If like myself we have a pattern of people bailing on us I can see where a bailing message would be heard. I know I said the piece about doing a piece alone, but I think I need that for me, I think a lesson lays there but I also want to continue with the Raw. So bring it on...what did everyone else hear. It has brought up the mirror for us lets use it to get clear, hmmm. I admit I am not the most articulate in explaining what it is that I want to say. Speaking it out loud can trip me up. Yes, I need to clear that. So don't count me out....please....
I thought we were at a place where we could throw out what was going on the huge conflict was am I not on the same page if I am doing this other thing as well. In addition too. My feelings that I was not contributing to the business end because I could see Pam taking a huge load. I also recognize how much you do Joy, and in feeling like I am not doing enough comes from you two taking so much on. I have been looking at Grants today, local Grants.
I did surgery on my computer today and it hasn't gone down once so I look at that as a sign, that communication is now open. I own that I was not contributing much lately to the blog as far as posting but I have been there. I have been hitting the different Save the buttons.
So lets get this hashed out so we can move on upwards and outward...
I love you guys and I want to be clear about that.....
Whoa
Look, after last night's class and the comments and reactions that were going around, and people wanting to be their own thing, and go in a different direction, and R quitting, the offer on my part was to close the experiment NOT because I am looking for an out.
If I was I would say that.
Don't hallucinate that maybe I must be posting this because I'm tired. I've said over and over this is my passion. This is what I do.
I looked back Jac and you hadn't posted for 9 days. Until today. That means it wasn't a place you come to anymore. You told us why last night. You have a different direction and something that is now calling you. And it doesn't have anything to do with raw.
I asked YOU all if you were done, and if we should end the blog. NOT because I want out. Because I am feeling that some of YOU do.
Come on, you can't hide in a room full of psychics! Who are we kidding? NO ONE. And this idea of the blog was to get honest, and to free ourselves of hiding and guilt. But whew, that's harder than you thought eh?
What happened in Bear Lake? Well, we started talking about going into the world with this in a bigger way. NO ONE noticed that it set things off? I did! How many of you said "since Bear Lake..." Rebecca, Jac, CA, me...well that's a fair number of us. Pam? Kathy? Well, Kathy only came up the last night.
And I got a flurry of words-from 2 people and nothing from 4 yet- about how this blog is valuable TO OTHERS. Lauren at least you said it was valuable to you.
I am asking YOU if it is too much trouble, too much committment, too much effort for YOU. YOUR committment to it.
I am asking what is YOUR committment to this-I know what mine is.
I'm not asking for ideas on how to redesign it-yet.
I'm asking you to look inside and see if you have the energy, desire, committment and interest to continue the blog. The committment was to post daily, honestly, about how raw is doing for you. When you felt like you couldn't be little cheerleaders, you quit. We all do it.
Jac, alot of this is based on things you said last night. The conflict you are feeling, and the desire to do something different with your time and energy and passion that isn't in a raw direction. It made me wonder who else is feeling that way?
Nothing happens in a vaccum.
If I was I would say that.
Don't hallucinate that maybe I must be posting this because I'm tired. I've said over and over this is my passion. This is what I do.
I looked back Jac and you hadn't posted for 9 days. Until today. That means it wasn't a place you come to anymore. You told us why last night. You have a different direction and something that is now calling you. And it doesn't have anything to do with raw.
I asked YOU all if you were done, and if we should end the blog. NOT because I want out. Because I am feeling that some of YOU do.
Come on, you can't hide in a room full of psychics! Who are we kidding? NO ONE. And this idea of the blog was to get honest, and to free ourselves of hiding and guilt. But whew, that's harder than you thought eh?
What happened in Bear Lake? Well, we started talking about going into the world with this in a bigger way. NO ONE noticed that it set things off? I did! How many of you said "since Bear Lake..." Rebecca, Jac, CA, me...well that's a fair number of us. Pam? Kathy? Well, Kathy only came up the last night.
And I got a flurry of words-from 2 people and nothing from 4 yet- about how this blog is valuable TO OTHERS. Lauren at least you said it was valuable to you.
I am asking YOU if it is too much trouble, too much committment, too much effort for YOU. YOUR committment to it.
I am asking what is YOUR committment to this-I know what mine is.
I'm not asking for ideas on how to redesign it-yet.
I'm asking you to look inside and see if you have the energy, desire, committment and interest to continue the blog. The committment was to post daily, honestly, about how raw is doing for you. When you felt like you couldn't be little cheerleaders, you quit. We all do it.
Jac, alot of this is based on things you said last night. The conflict you are feeling, and the desire to do something different with your time and energy and passion that isn't in a raw direction. It made me wonder who else is feeling that way?
Nothing happens in a vaccum.
What to do when the honeymoon phase is over...?
The in-betweens are always very difficult for me.
(As you all might have noticed.)
After the honeymoon phase, that feeling of bliss with a new part of me I get to meet for the very first time...The courting part after doing a lot of work or coming up with tons of new ideas...then theres the lull of the in-between...where the Jekyl version of me comes out to play. This is time I used to get sick...but now have managed to kick that habit...now I just talk and talk and talk. Same thing. A new distraction.
I know Ive posted about this before a while ago and maybe even several times.
After clearing many kids this evening who attempted to distract me ALL day long, these are questions I have:
1) How can I re-frame this 'lull' period...? I know its much like a relationship and thats what I'm having some difficulty on.
2) How can you keep the momentum going...it doesnt have to be at 100% all the time--- I just dont want it to drop to 50% then I freak out and go on self-destruct?
Thank you.
(As you all might have noticed.)
After the honeymoon phase, that feeling of bliss with a new part of me I get to meet for the very first time...The courting part after doing a lot of work or coming up with tons of new ideas...then theres the lull of the in-between...where the Jekyl version of me comes out to play. This is time I used to get sick...but now have managed to kick that habit...now I just talk and talk and talk. Same thing. A new distraction.
I know Ive posted about this before a while ago and maybe even several times.
After clearing many kids this evening who attempted to distract me ALL day long, these are questions I have:
1) How can I re-frame this 'lull' period...? I know its much like a relationship and thats what I'm having some difficulty on.
2) How can you keep the momentum going...it doesnt have to be at 100% all the time--- I just dont want it to drop to 50% then I freak out and go on self-destruct?
Thank you.
Re-invention/Archiving
This blog should maybe be re-invented for us and maybe opened or archived in some way so that we can reference it as well as others or new comers....
Its like the history of writing and cave drawings we need a record of what we found what we learned...!
Its like the history of writing and cave drawings we need a record of what we found what we learned...!
Choices
i told myself I wasn't going to write today. I was going to get on with other things.
Oh well.
Choices. And the power of choice. That's what it is all about.
And abdicating our choices is exactly what is going on in this country on a macro expression of our personal bits.
Changing "out there" is about changing the mesa, remember that. It's all self reflection. Seeing ourselves in each other. owning what we see and hear in each other.
We used food as the map.
Once we undid the voices of everyone else that told us what and how and when we should eat-all those other people in our heads, ultimately we are left with ourselves.
Last week when we blew out all the old archetypical roles and we were left with just us-alone-we discovered it wasn't so bad, and for some of you, you realized that you didn't necessarily WANT to join with anyone else, you preferred to be alone. Or did you?
Preference for solitude is no longer a "punishment" or an "abandonment" but a choice. hmmmm
well then, forming a group to go into the world and do something together no longer holds much interest. But why? Ultimately the shamanic way is about forming cohesive community. Community, and coming together in mutual support is what it is ALL about. The misunderstanding is that the shaman is alone. She is so totally joined to every living thing so is never alone.
Maybe in this society the wounding is too deep and we don't know how to come together for a greater good? We got excited about letting the world know how great we felt, but when it came time to committing to each other first, and then to a cause-um-I don't think so. Thanks but I'd rather not. I'd rather go off by myself. Ok.
I said if we didn't heal the mirror it would continue to affect, and it has, is. More pieces of those deep wounds appear. And they are disguised by our ego selves.
"Don't do this. COME this way. Your passion is really here. It's not there". These are gremlins.
These background voices that say "You don't have any value in that group, there isn't anything you have to offer over there. It's outdated, outmoded, no value. But here! Ah! Here you can be it all, make a difference, have an identity. Look at this bright shiny toy, this wonderful idea, and you can have it all! You don't have to share it with anyone. It's so wonderful! It's exactly what you want to be doing! You don't have to jump through anyone's rules, it'll be all yours. You don't have to share it or wait for them or even tell them about it. It'll be all yours. THIS is what you've been waiting for." Suddenly you can't see yourself doing anything with "them" but you are all over creative in another idea that so calls to you. And you are off. You have direction, focus, passion, intensity, alone.
Lauren, we've talked about the plethora of shiny new ideas and directions that flood us all the time, and how they are ALL viable and doable, and how do we choose?
Or maybe they are saying inside:
"you don't belong there. You're pulling them down. You have your own thing to do. Come on. you don't really want to do this. You want to make money, not mess around selling juice for christ's sake! This is so over. You did this when you were 10."
Or maybe
"they are going to take it all away from you. You have to stay in charge because otherwise you will have to walk away from it. You better define your place and what you are going to do or you will lose it, they will take over and swallow you up!"
Or what about
"this is too much. You don't want to be this busy? Come on! You want to have a quiet vacation life. You're close to retirement. You want to lay on a beach with room service! What are you doing even thinking about this!"
The fears that the north work brings up ARE loss of self to the whole. They are WORDS, VOICES, MENTAL BODY. There are no accidents that in this country we want individual identity. When we have healed that piece, we are no longer afraid of being lost, unseen, missed. But. If we let go of that illusion-then what??? Oblivion.
Better now to step forward with our voice, face. Why is it that having ALL of a small piece is so much more important to us that being part of something that could be big? Because we don't trust people. Push comes to shove, the wound is in groups. Remember I told you that the sacral chakra is about safety WITH OTHERS. Men, women, groups.
People always think it's sexual issues. It so isn't. It's women and women, mother, father, family, siblings, betrayal, missed understandings. It's people stuff. Not getting them, not trusting them.
But hey. As I said, I only offer the door. I can't make anyone go through. Raw is raw, and it isn't. Raw is into the emotional body. And, using the techniques, or not is choice. It's all choice. As you said Lauren, we are the only ones ultimately that stop ourselves. We are so much MORE together, but the thing that stops us if fear of being tricked, or betrayed, or hurt in some way again. The past memory locked in the heart keeps us from stepping in and letting it happen again.
We walk away from groups, organizations, committees, clubs, classes anytime we feel unsafe with people
We seclude, hibernate, nest, quest, which are all words for getting off alone.
Choices. This was an experiment. My thought is maybe it's as far as it can go right now. Thanks for your input Lauren. Let's see if anyone else has an opinion.
Oh well.
Choices. And the power of choice. That's what it is all about.
And abdicating our choices is exactly what is going on in this country on a macro expression of our personal bits.
Changing "out there" is about changing the mesa, remember that. It's all self reflection. Seeing ourselves in each other. owning what we see and hear in each other.
We used food as the map.
Once we undid the voices of everyone else that told us what and how and when we should eat-all those other people in our heads, ultimately we are left with ourselves.
Last week when we blew out all the old archetypical roles and we were left with just us-alone-we discovered it wasn't so bad, and for some of you, you realized that you didn't necessarily WANT to join with anyone else, you preferred to be alone. Or did you?
Preference for solitude is no longer a "punishment" or an "abandonment" but a choice. hmmmm
well then, forming a group to go into the world and do something together no longer holds much interest. But why? Ultimately the shamanic way is about forming cohesive community. Community, and coming together in mutual support is what it is ALL about. The misunderstanding is that the shaman is alone. She is so totally joined to every living thing so is never alone.
Maybe in this society the wounding is too deep and we don't know how to come together for a greater good? We got excited about letting the world know how great we felt, but when it came time to committing to each other first, and then to a cause-um-I don't think so. Thanks but I'd rather not. I'd rather go off by myself. Ok.
I said if we didn't heal the mirror it would continue to affect, and it has, is. More pieces of those deep wounds appear. And they are disguised by our ego selves.
"Don't do this. COME this way. Your passion is really here. It's not there". These are gremlins.
These background voices that say "You don't have any value in that group, there isn't anything you have to offer over there. It's outdated, outmoded, no value. But here! Ah! Here you can be it all, make a difference, have an identity. Look at this bright shiny toy, this wonderful idea, and you can have it all! You don't have to share it with anyone. It's so wonderful! It's exactly what you want to be doing! You don't have to jump through anyone's rules, it'll be all yours. You don't have to share it or wait for them or even tell them about it. It'll be all yours. THIS is what you've been waiting for." Suddenly you can't see yourself doing anything with "them" but you are all over creative in another idea that so calls to you. And you are off. You have direction, focus, passion, intensity, alone.
Lauren, we've talked about the plethora of shiny new ideas and directions that flood us all the time, and how they are ALL viable and doable, and how do we choose?
Or maybe they are saying inside:
"you don't belong there. You're pulling them down. You have your own thing to do. Come on. you don't really want to do this. You want to make money, not mess around selling juice for christ's sake! This is so over. You did this when you were 10."
Or maybe
"they are going to take it all away from you. You have to stay in charge because otherwise you will have to walk away from it. You better define your place and what you are going to do or you will lose it, they will take over and swallow you up!"
Or what about
"this is too much. You don't want to be this busy? Come on! You want to have a quiet vacation life. You're close to retirement. You want to lay on a beach with room service! What are you doing even thinking about this!"
The fears that the north work brings up ARE loss of self to the whole. They are WORDS, VOICES, MENTAL BODY. There are no accidents that in this country we want individual identity. When we have healed that piece, we are no longer afraid of being lost, unseen, missed. But. If we let go of that illusion-then what??? Oblivion.
Better now to step forward with our voice, face. Why is it that having ALL of a small piece is so much more important to us that being part of something that could be big? Because we don't trust people. Push comes to shove, the wound is in groups. Remember I told you that the sacral chakra is about safety WITH OTHERS. Men, women, groups.
People always think it's sexual issues. It so isn't. It's women and women, mother, father, family, siblings, betrayal, missed understandings. It's people stuff. Not getting them, not trusting them.
But hey. As I said, I only offer the door. I can't make anyone go through. Raw is raw, and it isn't. Raw is into the emotional body. And, using the techniques, or not is choice. It's all choice. As you said Lauren, we are the only ones ultimately that stop ourselves. We are so much MORE together, but the thing that stops us if fear of being tricked, or betrayed, or hurt in some way again. The past memory locked in the heart keeps us from stepping in and letting it happen again.
We walk away from groups, organizations, committees, clubs, classes anytime we feel unsafe with people
We seclude, hibernate, nest, quest, which are all words for getting off alone.
Choices. This was an experiment. My thought is maybe it's as far as it can go right now. Thanks for your input Lauren. Let's see if anyone else has an opinion.
RAW...reinvention....!
Ive been off raw too. It sucks.
I love raw.
This space helps me stay in touch with raw.
I vote re-invent SHAMANS IN THE RAW and keep it!
I love raw.
This space helps me stay in touch with raw.
I vote re-invent SHAMANS IN THE RAW and keep it!
Time to End the Experiment?
You know, what I started to say was this was only ever going to be a temporary experiment, and maybe we need to talk about an exit strategy to all of this. We originally said 30 days. We are way past that.
We can end it any time and I can close the blog down with a click. It's been a great positive thing, and it accomplished what we set the experiment up for. Would we feel better going raw, we wondered?
It has changed my views on food, on my life, and I am very grateful that you all participated at all! It was fun! I was doing raw anyway, but it was more fun with all of you. I had a great time playing and eating and experimenting. I love going into new ventures and new territory.
Coming together as a group is no longer necessary or perhaps not even productive for you anymore. Busy lives, too many emails, too many committments in other directions, desire to do new things, desire to go back to old ways. As soon as it gets to not be "fun" we gotta shelve it or work it through. Let's shelve it. It's only food! Who gives a shit what you eat or how you feel after you eat it? I mean really! It's just food. We all eat. it's not that big a deal.
The idea was to support each other. But only for 30 days. This has gotten to be way more than you thought it would be. And some of you balked at a 30 day committment! Ok. We are all really good separatists. We know how to do it alone and we have our own lives, and we can take care of ourselves.
I don't have an attachment to this continuing. We can certainly let it go. It's getting to be too much to post, to think about what is going on inside you, to even read it, then let's end it and say done! Spring is trying to be here. We certainly have other things to do with our lives than write on the computer. I do. You do too.
30 days has certainly expanded far further than we anticipated. This is April. My intention was never to create this as a burden, or an obligation, so my vote is lets think about the end of shamans in the raw, maybe at the end of the month, maybe now, and disband it.
Anyone else?
We can end it any time and I can close the blog down with a click. It's been a great positive thing, and it accomplished what we set the experiment up for. Would we feel better going raw, we wondered?
It has changed my views on food, on my life, and I am very grateful that you all participated at all! It was fun! I was doing raw anyway, but it was more fun with all of you. I had a great time playing and eating and experimenting. I love going into new ventures and new territory.
Coming together as a group is no longer necessary or perhaps not even productive for you anymore. Busy lives, too many emails, too many committments in other directions, desire to do new things, desire to go back to old ways. As soon as it gets to not be "fun" we gotta shelve it or work it through. Let's shelve it. It's only food! Who gives a shit what you eat or how you feel after you eat it? I mean really! It's just food. We all eat. it's not that big a deal.
The idea was to support each other. But only for 30 days. This has gotten to be way more than you thought it would be. And some of you balked at a 30 day committment! Ok. We are all really good separatists. We know how to do it alone and we have our own lives, and we can take care of ourselves.
I don't have an attachment to this continuing. We can certainly let it go. It's getting to be too much to post, to think about what is going on inside you, to even read it, then let's end it and say done! Spring is trying to be here. We certainly have other things to do with our lives than write on the computer. I do. You do too.
30 days has certainly expanded far further than we anticipated. This is April. My intention was never to create this as a burden, or an obligation, so my vote is lets think about the end of shamans in the raw, maybe at the end of the month, maybe now, and disband it.
Anyone else?
A Grand Experiment
Shamans in the Raw simply started as a 30 day experiment. How would we feel if we went raw-ish for 30 days? I recall offering it out because I had been doing it for a few weeks and felt great, and Lauren had been doing it for months at that point.
At the end of 30 days you all decided you wanted to continue with another 30. Then another 30.
Then we began to talk about how we could let the world know that this truly makes a huge difference in how you feel.
We began to talk and think about ways to take the green juice out there. We began to talk about projects and got excited. We spun it off into a different night for meetings.
And then-we began to fall into old patterns. Did we fall off of raw too?
I can only speak for myself. I know the last few weeks I have been adding protein here and there. Chicken, fish, and some eel. I dropped to raw during the day and a cooked dinner. Not every night, but enough, and not just cooked, cooked animal protein. In alot of ways I felt better at first. Maybe that was the lull?
But I started to notice that while my poops still floated, I was having a harder and harder time getting up in the morning. That bounce I had been enjoying for months, wasn't there. I was waking up and groaning. I felt tired again despite taking my vitamins, and despite the green juice. Then I wasn't sleeping that nice deep sleep I used to have with raw. My sleep was restless again, disturbed.
I've been reaching for apples and bananas. A handful of almonds instead of trying recipes. It hasn't been as much fun, and I haven't been taking care of myself. It has been heavier overall. I feel dragged down. But. I wonder if it got heavier because of the food I was eating or was I eating heavier food because I felt heavier emotionally? I actually got on the scale and got the tape measure out and was surprised to see that despite my feeling heavier I was down.
Somehow eating raw makes me feel invincible, like I can do anything, and eating the cooked foods and the proteins makes me feel more defeated. Is that the right word? Defeated? Maybe not defeated. Maybe just plodding vs flying. It definitely is a heavier feeling overall.
Anyone else?
At the end of 30 days you all decided you wanted to continue with another 30. Then another 30.
Then we began to talk about how we could let the world know that this truly makes a huge difference in how you feel.
We began to talk and think about ways to take the green juice out there. We began to talk about projects and got excited. We spun it off into a different night for meetings.
And then-we began to fall into old patterns. Did we fall off of raw too?
I can only speak for myself. I know the last few weeks I have been adding protein here and there. Chicken, fish, and some eel. I dropped to raw during the day and a cooked dinner. Not every night, but enough, and not just cooked, cooked animal protein. In alot of ways I felt better at first. Maybe that was the lull?
But I started to notice that while my poops still floated, I was having a harder and harder time getting up in the morning. That bounce I had been enjoying for months, wasn't there. I was waking up and groaning. I felt tired again despite taking my vitamins, and despite the green juice. Then I wasn't sleeping that nice deep sleep I used to have with raw. My sleep was restless again, disturbed.
I've been reaching for apples and bananas. A handful of almonds instead of trying recipes. It hasn't been as much fun, and I haven't been taking care of myself. It has been heavier overall. I feel dragged down. But. I wonder if it got heavier because of the food I was eating or was I eating heavier food because I felt heavier emotionally? I actually got on the scale and got the tape measure out and was surprised to see that despite my feeling heavier I was down.
Somehow eating raw makes me feel invincible, like I can do anything, and eating the cooked foods and the proteins makes me feel more defeated. Is that the right word? Defeated? Maybe not defeated. Maybe just plodding vs flying. It definitely is a heavier feeling overall.
Anyone else?
Not Sleeping Tonight
I told you all about that pulsing golden light over my alter two nights ago, so tonight I set my alarm so I could see if it happened again.
I came home tonight and took a look at the stones on my alter again to see if there was anything remarkable there. There isn't. A few of my Peruvian meteorites, a crystal Lina gifted me, some stones that used to be in my mesa, and I did have a gateway.
I had the stones laid out in a small gateway on the dresser.
Could it have been the gateway? The light wasn't just over the gateway though, it was over the whole alter area. Amazing.
It was so dark over the dresser tonight, the constrast was startling. NO light, nothing. In fact, deep shadow. I don't know what the light was the other night, but it appeared to be some sort of download. It pulsed, and had vertical striations to it. Bright golden light. Lasted for quite awhile. I remember sitting up and looking at it.
Tonight as I looked at the shadows and stillness I decided if it happens again I'm going to get out of bed and examine it closer!
At 4am in my bedroom it is dark. No light from the windows. The top of the dresser is dark dark dark.
Course then I couldn't go back to sleep so I have an early start on the day.
I came home tonight and took a look at the stones on my alter again to see if there was anything remarkable there. There isn't. A few of my Peruvian meteorites, a crystal Lina gifted me, some stones that used to be in my mesa, and I did have a gateway.
I had the stones laid out in a small gateway on the dresser.
Could it have been the gateway? The light wasn't just over the gateway though, it was over the whole alter area. Amazing.
It was so dark over the dresser tonight, the constrast was startling. NO light, nothing. In fact, deep shadow. I don't know what the light was the other night, but it appeared to be some sort of download. It pulsed, and had vertical striations to it. Bright golden light. Lasted for quite awhile. I remember sitting up and looking at it.
Tonight as I looked at the shadows and stillness I decided if it happens again I'm going to get out of bed and examine it closer!
At 4am in my bedroom it is dark. No light from the windows. The top of the dresser is dark dark dark.
Course then I couldn't go back to sleep so I have an early start on the day.
Monday, April 16, 2007
wonder woman syndrome.
so ive been watching all of these women around me, (including myself), do it all. They are the mother the father the husband the wife the lover the hero the provider the teacher etc...and im watching them worn out. im watching them tired. what are we trying to prove?...we know we can do it all. clearly. but if we can share the load, allow others in to take off some of the pressure, allow ourselves to release our grip on doing it all why wouldnt we? what would happen if we let go on the strangle hold of 'all'....that 'no i can do it' or 'its ok i got it'.... are we afraid of looking weak? or not being competant? or is it simply control...we do it best? or do we not want to bother anyone? what is it? or is it all of the above? have we just 'had' to for so long that we think we know how to keep it all together? im tired of doing it all... i know i can. ive proved it. im a wonder woman. but im beat. and bored of this way. i know the future is the group the community ive known this since i was a child hence the farm... but whats the reluctance? is it how to have me in a group? how to 'own' my own in a group and no get lost? if i let you wash the dishes today so i can rest i mean what is really going to happen? im i afraid of looking lazy? this was a mirror of what i watched tonight with my sister. shes this amazing mother woman goddess and shes spent and doing it all and no one can help her....so what is it?
Saturday, April 14, 2007
NATURAL SOLUTIONS FOUNDATION
I was sent this email from
Rima E. Laibow, MD
Medical Director
Natural Solutions Foundation
www.HealthFreedomUSA.org
You can watch her on her website NATURAL SOLUTIONS FOUNDATION and why she wants us to get involved. She's pretty strong. She makes some salient points that make you stop and think. Pass the link on to people you want to see it or that might be interested. She's kinda militant and she's definitely passionate.
Pass this on. DEMOCRACY IN ACTION
Since we are talking about small steps, this may be one that interests you. I filled out the form and clicked. I believe in our having our health freedoms, and the right to take herbal supplements. I believe in bio-identical hormones, but most importantly I believe in our right to have a choice.
Read and decide for yourselves.
Rima E. Laibow, MD
Medical Director
Natural Solutions Foundation
www.HealthFreedomUSA.org
You can watch her on her website NATURAL SOLUTIONS FOUNDATION and why she wants us to get involved. She's pretty strong. She makes some salient points that make you stop and think. Pass the link on to people you want to see it or that might be interested. She's kinda militant and she's definitely passionate.
Pass this on. DEMOCRACY IN ACTION
Since we are talking about small steps, this may be one that interests you. I filled out the form and clicked. I believe in our having our health freedoms, and the right to take herbal supplements. I believe in bio-identical hormones, but most importantly I believe in our right to have a choice.
Read and decide for yourselves.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Exercise
The other day I was pouring a cup of coffee and listening to some salsa music. I think it was B TRIBE Kathy! I thought "man, why can't they just have exercise shows that are fun and like dancing or something?"
Well talk about manifesting!
I was flipping through the ON DEMAND option on Comcast later that same day, and lo' the have exercise shows on demand!
That means any time you want you can do a show, rather than having to fit it in to your schedule. But better yet-they have a whole series ON DEMAND of exercise DANCE classes! Yahoo!
They have Hawaiian dance which I did and can tell you was a whole lot of FUN!
They have salsa classes
They have hiphop classes
This was amazing fun, and a lot of good exercise. Those Hawaiian women have thighs of steel I tell ya! They can crack coconuts with their knees. I am so impressed. You do a half hour of hula and you have exercised all the right places. 45 minutes and you won't be able to walk the next day!
I felt awesome, and have had a great time doing them this week about every other day. Try it if you have Comcast. I wish I could record them-they are that good!
Quinoa Pasta...ew!
Ok, so remember I said once that you NEVER mess with an Italian's Italian food? And remember how I don't like them using the same "name" for their "new" foods?
Here's a prime example. I have NEVER had to throw an entire pot of pasta out...until now. I bought ANCIENT HARVEST'S QUINOA PASTA at the urging of Marilyn. She came up to me with a package and said "Oh look! If you fix this you can eat with the family!" as if I am in exhile...yeah that same week...
Anyway-I bought it. It was easier. I decided to try cooking it tonight. It cooks fast. In 4 min. I had a pot of sticky, icky chunky stuck together ooz. The water had turned so thick it was pasty. The taste was like dough. Horrible mess. I plan to take the empty box back to Wild Oats and let them know. Meanwhile they discontinued carrying a really GOOD quinoa product. I am going to be a pro-active voice this time and not a passive resentful whiner shopper. Hah!
But be warned. It is NOT pasta. It does NOT sub for it. If you must eat pasta, try the whole wheat, or better, do the spinach and or the tomato pastas. Very good.
I made a great sundried tomato pesto raw sauce and I am going to spiralize some zucchini and be delighted beyond compare.
Have a good evening!
Understanding Colors
There has been such an interesting MISSED understanding about the color, and I have to say it's probably my fault for not explaining it my way, and instead posting on my website Joe's and Larry's interpretation. Out of deference for their process, I was loath to mess too much with it, but given the latest balking and protests, let's regroup and take another look at it all.
I've spent the morning on my website, on the community page, and I have taken down all the other information that was there. I am posting my own interpretations of the color frequencies and the way in which they speak to me and through me and what they mean, and incorporated it into what has become Sacred Source.
Click on the link, and then go to the community page for a brief beginning to an understanding of the colors.
AYNI WASI
To me, there is nothing but the energy of color and the life within and because of it. When someone is ill, they have disconnected from a color frequency. When we track and find the color they are missing, we can help them back into Ayni. Back into balance. When they have experienced a trauma, there is a specific color or colors that they will begin to block from reaching them. When we do healings we are reconnecting them with those colors.
If this interests you, talk to me and if we have enough, I will teach a weekend class. It's already waited 4 years though, a few more won't hurt if the time still isn't here. I'm becoming very patient.
Celestine Prophecy
If you don't know the story, it's about a young man's awakening to the laws of the universe, and 9 prophecies that have been discovered in a village in Peru, and how he is led through 'coincidence' on a trip down there.
Paraphrasing the 9 prophecies, that he discovers for himself on the journey-coincidentally. :)
1. We live in a world of coincidence and synchronicity that seems like destiny.
2. As we awaken we will create a new world view of the Universe as energetic and sacred.
3. We will discover that everything around us, all matter, stems from a divine energy that we can see and understand.
4. We will see that our sense of disconnetion from Source has caused us to 'take' energy from each other and this has caused conflict.
5. The solution comes from reconnecting to the Divine. This will fill us with unlimited energy and love and lift us to a higher awareness.
6. In this awareness we release our patterns of controlling and discover our truth and mission to share that raises humanity.
7. We discover our inner intuition that shows us where to go and what to do. IF we make only positive interpretations, a flow of coincidences will open doors for our mission to unfold.
8. When enough of us enter this flow, giving only positive energy to the Higher Self of everyone we meet, we build a new cuture where our bodies evolve to higher levels of energy and perception.
9. In this way we participate in the long journey of evolution: to energize our bodies, generation by generation, until we can walk into a heaven we can finally see.
Paraphrasing the 9 prophecies, that he discovers for himself on the journey-coincidentally. :)
1. We live in a world of coincidence and synchronicity that seems like destiny.
2. As we awaken we will create a new world view of the Universe as energetic and sacred.
3. We will discover that everything around us, all matter, stems from a divine energy that we can see and understand.
4. We will see that our sense of disconnetion from Source has caused us to 'take' energy from each other and this has caused conflict.
5. The solution comes from reconnecting to the Divine. This will fill us with unlimited energy and love and lift us to a higher awareness.
6. In this awareness we release our patterns of controlling and discover our truth and mission to share that raises humanity.
7. We discover our inner intuition that shows us where to go and what to do. IF we make only positive interpretations, a flow of coincidences will open doors for our mission to unfold.
8. When enough of us enter this flow, giving only positive energy to the Higher Self of everyone we meet, we build a new cuture where our bodies evolve to higher levels of energy and perception.
9. In this way we participate in the long journey of evolution: to energize our bodies, generation by generation, until we can walk into a heaven we can finally see.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
my bio...my 'PRACTICE'...
So ive had a really hard time with this concept. Ive been working on a few websites for a really long time now years in fact and Im wondering what the hold up has been..or if it was in fact a hold up...I think now the websites have been place holders for something I knew would come in the future but that wasnt clear yet or defined...2 nights ago (after an amazing meditation class) I pulled an all-nighter. I got into bed and kept trying to sleep but I kept hearing get up get up get up time to work! I turned on my computer at 7 hours later I had my 'bio' for my 'professional healing practice'. something had clicked during the meditation, the post meditation talk, and a tea I had with a friend after...so many things from years ago months ago that day came together----and I watched it as lights with sticky ends pulling sifting through these moments that all of a sudden all clicked into place...for me that was the 'evolution' moment. My own internal '100 monkeys' that all finally got it. Its so cool when that happens...
Then yesterday I went to Columbia to hear a talk (my first visit to the arhitecture dept in a LONG time)...it was just a 'lens' change but the same stuff that Ive been working on with this work...the same questions the same everything just a different vocabulary ... language a different physical manifestation of ideas...it was really amazing. So in rethinking this notion of 'practice' I think it depends on what scale one comes in at it...My 'Practice' on the grand scale is me. Ive pretty much figured that out...but the ways in which I explore what I find and translate and manifest what my reality is becomes my imprint externally - my body of work that I share outside of me...Anyway you all probably get this or have known this and I did too...but this was the progress mark the last guy over the hill to go explore the next one...clearing or understanding an issue that was at 99 and just was waiting for 100 to move forward...
Then yesterday I went to Columbia to hear a talk (my first visit to the arhitecture dept in a LONG time)...it was just a 'lens' change but the same stuff that Ive been working on with this work...the same questions the same everything just a different vocabulary ... language a different physical manifestation of ideas...it was really amazing. So in rethinking this notion of 'practice' I think it depends on what scale one comes in at it...My 'Practice' on the grand scale is me. Ive pretty much figured that out...but the ways in which I explore what I find and translate and manifest what my reality is becomes my imprint externally - my body of work that I share outside of me...Anyway you all probably get this or have known this and I did too...but this was the progress mark the last guy over the hill to go explore the next one...clearing or understanding an issue that was at 99 and just was waiting for 100 to move forward...
The Process of Filling Ourselves
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 glasses of wine...
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two glasses of wine from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things; your family, your children, your health, your friends, and our favourite passions; things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your House, and your car.
The sand is everything else; the small stuff.
If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first; the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the wine represented.
The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of glasses of wine with a friend."
hello.........
how are you all doing??
felt like i needed to send a roll call ! hee hee....
i probably just miss you guys.....
how was class last night?
felt like i needed to send a roll call ! hee hee....
i probably just miss you guys.....
how was class last night?
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
diamond shaped sacred cow orbs...
So many of the pics I took in COsta riCa have orbs -- but this one is very different...ive never seen diamond orbs like this....These are brahman cow (the sacred cow of hinduism)...they are all over costa rica... these guys were on the dirt pass to my farm in front of an abandoned school house...interesting huh? ive just never seen a shower of diamond orbs like this....circles i used to think oh its the light or the flash etc....but when i looked at this one I was like huh maybe theres something to it....im not sold yet but interested....very interested....
Pam's Streaking Orb
So because it is an orb day, I'm posting Pam's wonderful picture...so we can all look at it again. Do you think we are being "helped"? DUH! Beam me up Scottie. LOL
ORBS at Thanksgiving-putting words in my mouth
My Dad came to Thanksgiving Dinner Afterall See it about in my mouth? Double click to get it in a bigger image. It's pretty cool really. Dad always was a ham for the camera.
I don't think I ever showed any of you this picture my mother took at Thanksgiving. My father died in this house, and he always did love a party! There is Neno-doing a fine imitation of my father-he always seemed to fall asleep on the couch!
It's a terrible picture of me-don't you just love those candid snaps?! Do you think Dad was trying to put words in my mouth? Oh well-orbs to all of you! :)
Amazing Grace and ORBS
I thought this would be a good way to begin your day. I swear I see a face on the picture of Amazing Grace 2, its the one with the ball of light to the left.
I woke up this morning thinking, I am going to take my time and drink my coffee and write, then I look out the window and see huge things happening in the sky, so on with the clothes and out the door I go. I is very cold out there today, up in the hills, but the dynamics happening in the sky have me totally captured. It just fills me with sooo much energy and I feel sooo lit. I am going to do a book of the sky, to put on your coffee tables, or for your meditation or contemplation. Does it strike you like it does me? We live in such a beautiful place...this Earth, can we be kinder to her, Lady Gaia who provides us with so much. We take much and seem to be returning very little. Can we raise our awareness and see the blight we create. If we create it, can we not be responsible to change it. If you could imagine what it would be like if we all went solar and off the grid. We could be breathing the clear air pictured in Amazing Grace...Doesn't it just give you chills (the good kind, the kind that lets you know you have touched the sacred).
Be well...Be Happy...Be Blessed...
Monday, April 9, 2007
Goji Lemonade and Chocolate Shake
So today I made Omars goji lemonade...it tastes really good...and EXACTLY what I need for energy...I have deep black circles sore lymphs and sore body all over....I am catching the cold before it catches me...Its been very cold here and have been running around doing a lot with my mom moving and me getting ready to leave again...my body is so sensitive to stress or change...I have to really be on top of everything and connected...AND LISTEN...I kept getting that I needed more oils so I got right on top of it and began downing an oil blend...its helping...the key for me is not being lazy or ignoring what im getting.......im not letting this bug in! OOOHHH and I need to take a hot epsom salt bath...man that sounds soooo good --- IM FREEZING internally...
Also I made the chocolate shake the other day (in a big batch) and still have it in the fridge....SO yum...
I miss Omar's but this is a good tide-me-over until May....
Pam did you say you needed the Goji lemonade? He gave it to us that day but i can post it if you guys need it...let me know.
Also I made the chocolate shake the other day (in a big batch) and still have it in the fridge....SO yum...
I miss Omar's but this is a good tide-me-over until May....
Pam did you say you needed the Goji lemonade? He gave it to us that day but i can post it if you guys need it...let me know.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
colors...
so ive been reading and re-reading the colors...i keep asking what color i am and i do keep getting all --- (obviously) --- then i ask if i was one color what color would it be and it keeps shifting. is this my fear of being limited or defined? probably. do you change colors? i mean taking one of those photographs i would be different each moment im sure? or maybe not? huh i should get one...ive been reading the traps more as a way of figuring out which one sounds closest rather than positive aspects as im sure im somehow a little stuck in a trap still ... i also get i will understand and see it soon...
Easter Goodies
I'm sitting here watching the effects baskets of candy have on two small children. All that sugar going down their throats just as fast as they can shovel it in. Unfortunately, they also received very long-stemmed butterfly nets, which in combination with the sugar high is a little dangerous in my house. Good thing the munchkins are so short - they were only able to come within 2 inches of the rotating ceiling fan.
So I'm sitting here thinking - what if? What if parents had the option to purchase an all-raw Easter basket for their children? One that contained fruit leathers, dehydrated cookies, and jungle toys and books - all with the ShamaMama logo. What if we also offered packages for other holidays for both children and adults: Valentines (chocolate truffle comes to mind), Christmas, Thanksgiving, Halloween, Mother's Day, Father's Day. What if we set up a website and took orders off the Internet as well as fast-food outlets? What if we set up little kiosks in malls next door to Mrs. Fields and sold these alternative sweets? What if we used a portion of the proceeds to provide these treats to homeless and/or low income families?
All this thinking just because my ceiling fan almost bit the dust. I knew there was a reason these kids keep showing up at my house. By the way, nothing's more fun than watching little children get excited. Catherine Ann, you can probably attest to that.
So I'm sitting here thinking - what if? What if parents had the option to purchase an all-raw Easter basket for their children? One that contained fruit leathers, dehydrated cookies, and jungle toys and books - all with the ShamaMama logo. What if we also offered packages for other holidays for both children and adults: Valentines (chocolate truffle comes to mind), Christmas, Thanksgiving, Halloween, Mother's Day, Father's Day. What if we set up a website and took orders off the Internet as well as fast-food outlets? What if we set up little kiosks in malls next door to Mrs. Fields and sold these alternative sweets? What if we used a portion of the proceeds to provide these treats to homeless and/or low income families?
All this thinking just because my ceiling fan almost bit the dust. I knew there was a reason these kids keep showing up at my house. By the way, nothing's more fun than watching little children get excited. Catherine Ann, you can probably attest to that.
Saturday, April 7, 2007
numbers...
so did you guys want me to go ahead and get the tix?
im here until Sunday so let me know asap....!
i have all of the numbers...
im here until Sunday so let me know asap....!
i have all of the numbers...
Chez Panisse School Lunch Initiative
Here is a link to the school lunch initiative. The chef at Martin Luther King threw out 4-day-old pizzas and was thrilled saying that they USED TO make 40 pizzas a day. What does this mean to her? It means the KIDS are making healthier choices because they are offered healthier choices. The new Initiative has been in place since 2004-so not long.
I do believe that given the choice the kids will WANT healthier foods. I am really feeling like PC is the perfect place to start the raw food initiative here...anyone else feeling this or is it just me?
This could be a great research project, and a start to the green juice smoothies. If we could get kids to LIKE THEM and WANT THEM, don't you think that that would be great news making?
Can't wait for our meeting!
I do believe that given the choice the kids will WANT healthier foods. I am really feeling like PC is the perfect place to start the raw food initiative here...anyone else feeling this or is it just me?
This could be a great research project, and a start to the green juice smoothies. If we could get kids to LIKE THEM and WANT THEM, don't you think that that would be great news making?
Can't wait for our meeting!
VITAMIX Blender
Wow, I am really impressed with what I am learning about the Chimp diet, how I feel with more greens, and what I am learning about the Vitamix blender. I got on the Vitamix website and they have a slew of recipes too.
By the way, if you think the $365. price tag at Costco is alot-they sell for $479-$574. on the website! Depends if you want the Super or the Deluxe, what color, and if you want extras. It could run even more. So! Costco is a savings.
It's a mighty machine for sure. Now, the Vitamix 5000 itself is $399. $419. if you want it in red Pam, so you know.
If you miss Costco's demo week in Murray (Apr 13-21) you can catch them in West Bountiful (May 18-27). They rotate between the stores and come once every six months. They aren't due back to SLC downtown for about 4 mns. I checked Ogden-they were there last month. I saw them, was impressed, didn't buy it. Hmmm.
After having read Bortenko's book now though, I am feeling different about the mighty machine. One of the things I like is that we can actually utilize all that pulp we have been gripeing about throwing out. (I put mine in the dehydrator today-will let you know).
240 miles an hour! Wow!
I watched their little video demonstrations which are pretty informative. Click on the images on the right side. There are 4 of the little video demos.
Grapes, strawberres, a banana and ice-there is your smoothie.
It can make HOT raw soup. Run the container for 4 min and you get steam coming out! They call it "friction cooking". Now that's going to be way too hot for us rawish people, but what about 2 minutes?
I am going to take that sorbet maker back after watching the video because it can make that frozen treat I was thinking I was gonna make. Silly me!
Friday, April 6, 2007
From the Front Lines
I realize that "waging war" is not exactly the mantra I want to portray, but that is exactly what happened in my kitchen last night. Come hell or high water, I was determined to make the raw vegetarian spring rolls sold at Wild Oats. I brought out my 3 different brands of rice paper (two were made from some type of flour, not rice) and started them soaking. Then the fun began. I brought out my new OXO mandoline and attempted to make julienne carrots. What a joke! Chuck finally had to take over because I just wasn't strong enough to push the carrot down with the stupid hand device. Fortunately, he could somewhat work the thing. The mandoline actually worked pretty well with the cucumbers and jicama (which I added because my cucumbers weren't crisp). Did I mention that the first thing I did was cut my thumb dropping the jicama? Then we started rolling the ingredients in a piece of lettuce, and tried out each of the 3 types of papers - I say 'we' because it took the two of us to figure out how to roll the papers - me being one-handed with my thumb wrapped in plastic trying not to bleed all over the vegetables! Chuck looked pretty funny trying to pick up dissolving rice papers out of a pan and laying them out flat. We rolled about 12, but it wasn't until the last 5 that they actually looked like the real thing. The picture isn't mine, by the way, but it is a pretty good facsimile.
Lessons learned: 1) don't overstuff (very crucial), 2) use a soft lettuce with no hard centers on the leafs that will poke out and tear the paper, 3) don't use tapioca-flour papers, 4) don't oversoak the rice papers, 5) make the rolls at least an hour before eating, and 6) buy an electric mandoline - which I ordered today on the Internet.
Lessons learned: 1) don't overstuff (very crucial), 2) use a soft lettuce with no hard centers on the leafs that will poke out and tear the paper, 3) don't use tapioca-flour papers, 4) don't oversoak the rice papers, 5) make the rolls at least an hour before eating, and 6) buy an electric mandoline - which I ordered today on the Internet.They actually tasted and looked like the real thing, especially since I found a bottle of Thai sweet chili pepper sauce at Wild Oats that must be the exact stuff they include with their spring rolls. Warning - the Wild Oats spring rolls package doesn't mention it contains sugar, which is the main ingredient on the bottle I purchased. I'm now going to try and come up with a sauce recipe that uses agave or raw honey and possibly add psyllium or agar-agar to thicken it.
The moral of this story? I'm hoping it's practice (and using the proper equipment) makes perfect.
The moral of this story? I'm hoping it's practice (and using the proper equipment) makes perfect.
From a friend...The shortest fairytale...
The shortest fairytale...
Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl "Will you
marry me?"
The girl said, "NO!" And she lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, camping, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, traveled more, had many boyfriends, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself. She went to the theater, never watched sports, never wore fricken lacy lingerie that went up her ass, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants, and burped, swore, and farted all the time.
The end.
Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl "Will you
marry me?"
The girl said, "NO!" And she lived happily ever after and went shopping, dancing, camping, drank martinis, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, traveled more, had many boyfriends, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself. She went to the theater, never watched sports, never wore fricken lacy lingerie that went up her ass, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants, and burped, swore, and farted all the time.
The end.
the good girl....right on target.....
The good girl thing....YES and YES. Was just talking to a friend about this last night we both said that because we had a very difficult parent we learned to notice everything around us almost like a perfect scientist testing, knowing, being ready for what we were going to face with them once we opened the door...if we heard laughs or heard a tv or smelled something specific or felt something or saw a line in a face move a certain way....we knew what was coming....we had to so that we werent suprised caught off guard....but we became masters at this...doing it with every friend teacher lover spouse etc...we would modify our behavior accordingly perfectly each time. If this then this....if he smiles this means its ok to then do this - if she turns around quickly it means shes angry with me -- if his mouth moves that way im disappointing him....amazing....we said last night imagine a world where we didnt modify our behavior we werent/didnt have to be so self conscious and controlled.....wow....that would be free...
Its funny no one taught me this (well questionable lets just say...to my knowledge...) its just something i did from an early age...maybe a coping mechanism to be loved to feel safe to feel included not be abandoned...very young... so of course when i was 18 i freaked out at my parents and said 'I have no idea who in the hell i am?? A perfect actress a chameleon' Ive been playing roles all of my life to keep things going smoothly to be the peacemaker...! No wonder we get sick and hide or even hibernate like the woman in costa rica....it is boundaries and also something else...its this internal monitor or dial that has been set to 'self-monitor self-control self-regulation for others' WHAT AN ILLUSION/DELUSION! It is all in my head huh...I get that loud and clear...
time to smack the shit out of that dial!!! i keep seeing myself hitting it over and over with a baseball bat....hmmm yep that hit a nerve....hahaha.....
Its funny no one taught me this (well questionable lets just say...to my knowledge...) its just something i did from an early age...maybe a coping mechanism to be loved to feel safe to feel included not be abandoned...very young... so of course when i was 18 i freaked out at my parents and said 'I have no idea who in the hell i am?? A perfect actress a chameleon' Ive been playing roles all of my life to keep things going smoothly to be the peacemaker...! No wonder we get sick and hide or even hibernate like the woman in costa rica....it is boundaries and also something else...its this internal monitor or dial that has been set to 'self-monitor self-control self-regulation for others' WHAT AN ILLUSION/DELUSION! It is all in my head huh...I get that loud and clear...
time to smack the shit out of that dial!!! i keep seeing myself hitting it over and over with a baseball bat....hmmm yep that hit a nerve....hahaha.....
CHEZ PANISSE FOUNDATION
Chez Panisse is a very very expensive california french restaurant in Berkeley just down the street from my mother. I remember when it first opened. It has a set menu downstairs. Requires reservations sometimes 6 months in advance.
I remember Alice Waters recruiting farmers to grow her signature baby vegetables for the restaurant. She MADE her menu-she didn't adapt to what was available. She created it. I was inspired by that years ago.
She also had a vision for school kids, and what she terms "delicious eating". A while ago Alice started some very interesting projects. She started the Chez Panisse Foundation. One of the projects are what she calls the edible schoolyard which consists of a one-acre organic garden at Martin Luther King Middle School-which happens to be where my father taught. It's permanent now, but it started by her getting the owners of vacant lots around town to let the kids turn them into edible gardens.
Since 1996, 3000 students have participated in the edible schoolyard program, and they have had 1,000 visitors. Her vision is to change what all 10,000 Berkeley public school children eat and they are reinventing the school lunch programs. They were instrumental in hiring a new "chef" for the schools, and have eliminated all processed foods from the menu, and have introduced FRESH and ORGANIC to the menu, and are still inside the budget, and they are looking to replicate the program in other areas, and have.
They have partners in New Haven, Connecticut, New Orleans, Louisiana, Los Angeles, and are talking with other areas. Keep this in mind when we get the foundation going-we don't have to invent everything. We can partner with those ahead of us. Joining hands...and making a difference in small ways where we can, and then expanding out.
Wouldn't it be awesome for the kids to have fresh food options at every school lunch? Jon misses the salad bar he had in Ogden-get that. They DO NOT have a fresh lunch option here in PC. That amazes me for as "forward" and "health conscience" PC is...
Here is a link to the school lunch initiative. the chef at Martin Luther King threw out 4 day old pizzas and was thrilled saying that they USED TO make 40 pizzas a day. What does this mean to her? It means the KIDS are making healthier choices because they are offered healthier choices.
I do believe that given the choice the kids will WANT healthier foods. I am really feeling like PC is the perfect place to start the raw food initiative here...anyone else feeling this or is it just me?
Reflections...
Ive been thinking a lot about this. When I was in Costa Rica I was set off by a woman whose house i was eating at for dinner. She said although she loved the summer there she couldnt wait for the winter the rainy season because then she could just be alone and quiet. She was explaining that the problem was that everyone always asks her to cook and do all of these things and in the summer there are parties every few days....she looked exhausted and bitter. She also had mentioned that she was a vegetarian for 30 years but that when she got there she realized she couldnt because of all of these 'events' it would be wrong to say no then she would be rude. I woke up the next morning feeling incredibly angry...this woman had touched a nerve so deep.... she was giving up herself for others...BUT only for the illusion of what others thought or believed...I find myself in this situation a lot --- much less now than ever before but still a few twinkles of it here or there...i dont want to make someone feel bad, or be the only one not having a drink, or eating bread etc etc. But doing those things makes me feel terrible and I cant hold myself and I spiral.....
In watching this woman I saw myself...I saw the old me the tired CFS me that just couldnt saw no that went spiralling out of control with food drink everything all because of my delusions about 'other' people. I felt like saying to this woman how could you give up everything you want that makes you feel good that feeds you? No ones asking you to? She makes these amazing cakes attends these wonderful things with a mix of love and resentment but dreams of just being alone...of having it all stop...
This has been a long running theme and it keeps spiking for me ... this morning I remembered this and realized Im obviously not clear on it yet.....this all or nothing mentality the 'well fine im just going to say screw it all and drink until i drown or eat until im stuffed even though it wont satisfy me one bit....!' SO dumb. wow. for such a smart girl I can be very stupid. Thats how i feel this morning. Angry that I still havent gotten this. I know what makes me feel good. I know my center. I just need to be able to hold it all the time. And each day I get better at it, but there a few hairy days when I get triggered and stumble back a bit....the good news is nows the day to take my few steps forward....a be a little more kind to myself on this all....it is a learning process and I have made SO much progress from where I was last year and in a very short time...shit i really have....thats good to remember....anyway...
off to work on it!
In watching this woman I saw myself...I saw the old me the tired CFS me that just couldnt saw no that went spiralling out of control with food drink everything all because of my delusions about 'other' people. I felt like saying to this woman how could you give up everything you want that makes you feel good that feeds you? No ones asking you to? She makes these amazing cakes attends these wonderful things with a mix of love and resentment but dreams of just being alone...of having it all stop...
This has been a long running theme and it keeps spiking for me ... this morning I remembered this and realized Im obviously not clear on it yet.....this all or nothing mentality the 'well fine im just going to say screw it all and drink until i drown or eat until im stuffed even though it wont satisfy me one bit....!' SO dumb. wow. for such a smart girl I can be very stupid. Thats how i feel this morning. Angry that I still havent gotten this. I know what makes me feel good. I know my center. I just need to be able to hold it all the time. And each day I get better at it, but there a few hairy days when I get triggered and stumble back a bit....the good news is nows the day to take my few steps forward....a be a little more kind to myself on this all....it is a learning process and I have made SO much progress from where I was last year and in a very short time...shit i really have....thats good to remember....anyway...
off to work on it!
Thursday, April 5, 2007
VOLUNTEERING
Here are a few more ideas on volunteering:
BEND IN THE RIVER VOLUNTEERS to work with kids as an education volunteer. You get to work with teachers in elementary classes, lead field classes, or act as a tour guide for visitors.
No experience is required.
VOLUNTEERING WITH THE UTAH STATE PARKSand the list looks like a lot of clean up jobs. I have a friend that volunteers with the trails and that's what they do. Clean, clear, lay. But he loves it.
VOLUNTEERING BIG BROTHERS BIG SISTERS
VOLUNTEERING WITH THE RED CROSS
START A COMPASSION CELL
TREE UTAH our office neighbors
I've added these to the list on the side. If you know of an organization that needs volunteers, let me know, or add it to the list. Kathy, I can't find the website for the Native American Grandparents organization. Do you have it?
BEND IN THE RIVER VOLUNTEERS to work with kids as an education volunteer. You get to work with teachers in elementary classes, lead field classes, or act as a tour guide for visitors.
No experience is required.
VOLUNTEERING WITH THE UTAH STATE PARKSand the list looks like a lot of clean up jobs. I have a friend that volunteers with the trails and that's what they do. Clean, clear, lay. But he loves it.
VOLUNTEERING BIG BROTHERS BIG SISTERS
VOLUNTEERING WITH THE RED CROSS
START A COMPASSION CELL
TREE UTAH our office neighbors
I've added these to the list on the side. If you know of an organization that needs volunteers, let me know, or add it to the list. Kathy, I can't find the website for the Native American Grandparents organization. Do you have it?
LAST NIGHT
Food and money are both energetic / emotional body issues. They aren't different really. They are core level survival pieces. FOOD is in the 3rd chakra. MONEY is a first chakra issue. Deeper, lower. DEEPER. LOWER. Closer to the bone. It's going to be more uncomfortable.
Money issues are IN THE BONES.
I said last night "who is having bones issues" because that is a money thing, and money is a first chakra. Not everyone heard me, but the ones that did, agreed they are having bone issues.
I think the tray needs to come out of the center of the floor, and it becomes another piece and another meeting. I proposed that last night. There are too many agendas trying to be confined in one meeting, and we have to seriously define the business stuff it's own space to give it reality.
And as to the passion projects-what I do every day, THIS WORK, connecting people, healing, doing the blogs, teaching...this IS my passion and my work and my life. I do this every day. This isn't something I turn on or off. I don't put it away to do something else. THIS is what I do. And I LOVE what I do.
I put down my paintbrush and my art studio to pick this up. THIS is my art. THIS is my passion. Now, having said that outloud-
Your passion project is what motivates you to get out of bed. Passion doesn't mean art. And it does. And it doesn't. It means the art of your life!
Rebecca, your passion project IS your life. Yours. It's about doing it today-anything that connects you to it.
Volunteer to take kids on nature walks at the nature center. WALK out in nature yourself. BUILD your amazing patio as a passion project. LOVE whatever it is you do. That's for all of us.
Every small action connects you to it. When Jac takes her camera out she is connecting to it, just by taking the camera, because that action tells her entire system that she is "observing", and that act of observation connects her.
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Marajuana the real cancer cure?
Here's some snippets from an article that says MJ may well be the cancer cure! Can you beat that? Wouldn't that just be too funny. We have had a major WAR on drugs with marajuana being touted as so bad for us, and we are busy RAISING awareness FOR Cancer. Turns out that the drug we are putting people in jail for illegal use and distribution of may well BE the cancer CURE. Too ironic? Read on:
Cannabinoids As Cancer Hope
exerpts from the article by Paul Armentano, Senior Policy Analyst
“Cannabinoids possess … anticancer activity [and may] possibly represent a new class of anti-cancer drugs that retard cancer growth, inhibit angiogenesis (the formation of new blood vessels) and the metastatic spreading of cancer cells.
So concludes a comprehensive review published in the October 2005 issue of the scientific journal Mini-Reviews in Medicinal Chemistry. Not familiar with the emerging body of research touting cannabis' ability to stave the spread of certain types of cancers? You're not alone.
For over 30 years, US politicians and bureaucrats have systematically turned a blind eye to scientific research indicating that marijuana may play a role in cancer prevention -- a finding that was first documented in 1974.
That year, a research team at the Medical College of Virginia (acting at the behest of the federal government) discovered that cannabis inhibited malignant tumor cell growth in culture and in mice. According to the study's results, reported nationally in an Aug. 18, 1974, Washington Post newspaper feature, administration of marijuana's primary cannabinoid THC, "slowed the growth of lung cancers, breast cancers and a virus-induced leukemia in laboratory mice, and prolonged their lives by as much as 36 percent."
Despite these favorable preclinical findings, US government officials dismissed the study (which was eventually published in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute in 1975), and refused to fund any follow-up research until conducting a similar –- though secret –- clinical trial in the mid-1990s. That study, conducted by the US National Toxicology Program to the tune of $2 million concluded that mice and rats administered high doses of THC over long periods experienced greater protection against malignant tumors than untreated controls.
In 2000, they reported in the journal Nature Medicine that injections of synthetic THC eradicated malignant gliomas (brain tumors) in one-third of treated rats, and prolonged life in another third by six weeks.
In 2003, researchers at the University of Milan in Naples, Italy, reported that non-psychoactive compounds in marijuana inhibited the growth of glioma cells in a dose dependent manner and selectively targeted and killed malignant cancer cells.
The following year, researchers reported in the journal of the American Association for Cancer Research that marijuana's constituents inhibited the spread of brain cancer in human tumor biopsies.
In a related development, a research team from the University of South Florida further noted that THC can also selectively inhibit the activation and replication of gamma herpes viruses. The viruses, which can lie dormant for years within white blood cells before becoming active and spreading to other cells, are thought to increase one's chances of developing cancers such as Karposis Sarcoma, Burkitts lymphoma, and Hodgkins disease.
More recently, investigators published pre-clinical findings demonstrating that cannabinoids may play a role in inhibiting cell growth of colectoral cancer, skin carcinoma, breast cancer, and prostate cancer, among other conditions.
THC proved far more beneficial – selectively decreasing the proliferation of malignant cells and inducing apoptosis more rapidly than its synthetic alternative while simultaneously leaving healthy cells unscathed.
US politicians have been little swayed by these results, and remain steadfastly opposed to the notion of sponsoring – or even acknowledging – this growing body of clinical research, preferring instead to promote the unfounded notion that cannabis use causes cancer."
Cannabinoids As Cancer Hope
exerpts from the article by Paul Armentano, Senior Policy Analyst
“Cannabinoids possess … anticancer activity [and may] possibly represent a new class of anti-cancer drugs that retard cancer growth, inhibit angiogenesis (the formation of new blood vessels) and the metastatic spreading of cancer cells.
So concludes a comprehensive review published in the October 2005 issue of the scientific journal Mini-Reviews in Medicinal Chemistry. Not familiar with the emerging body of research touting cannabis' ability to stave the spread of certain types of cancers? You're not alone.
For over 30 years, US politicians and bureaucrats have systematically turned a blind eye to scientific research indicating that marijuana may play a role in cancer prevention -- a finding that was first documented in 1974.
That year, a research team at the Medical College of Virginia (acting at the behest of the federal government) discovered that cannabis inhibited malignant tumor cell growth in culture and in mice. According to the study's results, reported nationally in an Aug. 18, 1974, Washington Post newspaper feature, administration of marijuana's primary cannabinoid THC, "slowed the growth of lung cancers, breast cancers and a virus-induced leukemia in laboratory mice, and prolonged their lives by as much as 36 percent."
Despite these favorable preclinical findings, US government officials dismissed the study (which was eventually published in the Journal of the National Cancer Institute in 1975), and refused to fund any follow-up research until conducting a similar –- though secret –- clinical trial in the mid-1990s. That study, conducted by the US National Toxicology Program to the tune of $2 million concluded that mice and rats administered high doses of THC over long periods experienced greater protection against malignant tumors than untreated controls.
In 2000, they reported in the journal Nature Medicine that injections of synthetic THC eradicated malignant gliomas (brain tumors) in one-third of treated rats, and prolonged life in another third by six weeks.
In 2003, researchers at the University of Milan in Naples, Italy, reported that non-psychoactive compounds in marijuana inhibited the growth of glioma cells in a dose dependent manner and selectively targeted and killed malignant cancer cells.
The following year, researchers reported in the journal of the American Association for Cancer Research that marijuana's constituents inhibited the spread of brain cancer in human tumor biopsies.
In a related development, a research team from the University of South Florida further noted that THC can also selectively inhibit the activation and replication of gamma herpes viruses. The viruses, which can lie dormant for years within white blood cells before becoming active and spreading to other cells, are thought to increase one's chances of developing cancers such as Karposis Sarcoma, Burkitts lymphoma, and Hodgkins disease.
More recently, investigators published pre-clinical findings demonstrating that cannabinoids may play a role in inhibiting cell growth of colectoral cancer, skin carcinoma, breast cancer, and prostate cancer, among other conditions.
THC proved far more beneficial – selectively decreasing the proliferation of malignant cells and inducing apoptosis more rapidly than its synthetic alternative while simultaneously leaving healthy cells unscathed.
US politicians have been little swayed by these results, and remain steadfastly opposed to the notion of sponsoring – or even acknowledging – this growing body of clinical research, preferring instead to promote the unfounded notion that cannabis use causes cancer."
NEW AT JAMBA
I went to Ogden yesterday, and decided to stop at JAMBA to get wheatgrass and carrot juice. Imagine my surprise-the front had been painted bright red, newly painted jazzy colors inside and a "GRAND REOPENING" sign was up. A crackerjack staff of 4 that was cranking out juices as fast as they could, and lines out the door. It was 4pm. Ages were mixed-all over the place from young kids, to teens, to adults, to the aged. Hmmm.
The had 4 juicers, and at least 15 containers and the staff worked really well together with an eb and flow each knowing what needed to be done next. I was impressed. The recipes were down, very little waste...until it came to the wheatgrass. He made twice as much as my little cup held.
Why the crowd?
Well well. They've introduced a few new products. PURE FRUIT in a cup. Pomegranate, and peach, actually 5 new recipes-maybe 6?
Peach is peach juice, apple-strawberry juice, peaches, mangos, strawberries and ice. (juices are just that-added as juice)
Pomegranate paradise-pomegranate juice, strawberries, mangos, peaches, and ice.
Acai Supercharger is new too.
They had a few others.
They've also added some green tea blends-which they were out of btw.
So! They are hearing the healthy call (remember I mentioned they considered themselves a treat-drink?) and are getting on the healthy wagon. ALL FRUIT choices-no ice cream, no yogurt. Interesting.
And they were packed! I waited 20 minutes for fresh squeezed carrot juice and 2 shots of wheatgrass. I was the ONLY ONE ordering anything like that btw, and my order kinda brough things to a halt.
The other thing was their music was too loud, and people couldn't hear their names called. So one woman kept jumping the line and asking if her order was ready-and she had 6 juices. A...no...!
And they have a brightly colored brochure-that promotes their new recipes AND all their philanthropic efforts. Like supporting a district manager that has cancer by organizing a run to raise funds for his familiy, supporting teachers and profiling a patron who's lost 70 pounds by skipping subs and switching to jamba drinks.
Um-they just went public and are trading on NASDAQ. That means-watch out folks-they are going to take off cuz they have the funds to fly.
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
New Mandoline Owner
I haven't made it to Spoons 'n Spice to buy a spiralizer, but I stopped on the way home at Orson Gygi's and bought a mandoline. I also went to an Oriental market and purchased some rice paper to make some spring rolls like the ones at Wild Oats. I'll let you know how they turn out.
Found a couple of recipes that look like they will match Raw Melissa's chocolate raspberry truffle. Now I know why the pieces of chocolate are so expensive - the cost of ingredients are outrageous. We'll need to keep this in mind for the future.
Feelings and Reality...
We've been learning to change our reality, our internal rules or issues. I have a story to recommend. You find it by going to Show Time's website. www.sho.com Then click on the link to watch the This American Life episode online. It's the second half I'm most interested in recommending to you all. To summarize there is an improv group who tries to inject life into things that are "lifeless". This group decided to go support an unknown rock band that had just started up. The group went to one of their shows and pretended to be adoring fans or groupies. They bought the band's CD ahead of time, learned the lyrics, sang along, danced and had a great time. The band had an amazing time performing. They felt so great for 3 days until they found out about the "prank". The results are fascinating. It's about what we've been exploring. It's what we are trying to do. Feel the feeling first and the reality will follow. Act as though you have money even though it's not here yet in "reality". The gifts they got from this event are just so interesting. So if you get a spare hour check this out, especially the second act.
LISTS WE HAVE MADE
I changed the blog a bit so it isn't as heavy. The lists were getting long and it took some scrolling to get to ones you might want to read.
Now, if you want to review a list, or add to it, click on it on the right, and the post will come up, then you can click on the little pencil and add to it. I'd love to see us continue to add to the lists, so please do make use of them.
Now, if you want to review a list, or add to it, click on it on the right, and the post will come up, then you can click on the little pencil and add to it. I'd love to see us continue to add to the lists, so please do make use of them.
Monster Fiber
I think I may have mentioned this before but never got around to posting it...I found something called Monster Fiber in the deli case at the organic market--- its by Matilda's Kitchen --- now why Im telling you guys this is because we can make it organic and raw using soaked and dehydrated nuts .... this one is 100% natural and has coconut and tastes really good added to shakes or on salads but I really bought it so I/we could copy it raw! Good for the store....
ingredients:
blend of ground flaxseeds, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, almonds, pumpkin seeds, and coconut
Im making Omars goji lemonade today Im on a mostly juice/blended shake fast for as long as I want (after eating too many dishes of rice and beans in Costa Rica...ow not good)
ingredients:
blend of ground flaxseeds, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds, almonds, pumpkin seeds, and coconut
Im making Omars goji lemonade today Im on a mostly juice/blended shake fast for as long as I want (after eating too many dishes of rice and beans in Costa Rica...ow not good)
Monday, April 2, 2007
THE LADY IN THE WATER
Oh do see this movie. Rent it. it's an M Knight Shalaman movie-director of THE VILLAGE. I like him. This is a great fantasy adventure movie. I enjoyed it this morning. Yep. Movies for breakfast. We are on spring break!
THE VOICES OF THE EXERCISE GREMLINS
THE VOICES OF THE GREMLINS AGAINST EXERCISING
0. I don't feel like exercising
0. I don't have anything to wear
0. I don't want to take my thighs to the club!
0. I just want to sit here
0. I think I want to just go to bed early tonight
0. I want to lose weight first
0. I'll do it in the morning
0. I'll start on the weekend
0. I'll wait until it's warmer
0. I'm not motivated to move
0. I'm too tired at night
0. I'm too tired to go exercise
0. It's too cold to exercise
0. It's too late to exercise now
0. My back hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My head hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My left knee hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My stomach hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
Oh look, it's already dark out.
0. I don't feel like exercising
0. I don't have anything to wear
0. I don't want to take my thighs to the club!
0. I just want to sit here
0. I think I want to just go to bed early tonight
0. I want to lose weight first
0. I'll do it in the morning
0. I'll start on the weekend
0. I'll wait until it's warmer
0. I'm not motivated to move
0. I'm too tired at night
0. I'm too tired to go exercise
0. It's too cold to exercise
0. It's too late to exercise now
0. My back hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My head hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My left knee hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
0. My stomach hurts, I'll do it tomorrow
Oh look, it's already dark out.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Raw Melissa Workshops - $25
Saturday, April 7th 10am-1pm
Location: Springville – Ginger’s Café (School of Natural Healing)
Topic: Beginning Raw I – Five Essential Recipes to Get You Started
Saturday, April 14th 10am-1pm
Location: Salt Lake City
Topic: Essential Condiments, Dips, and Sauces to add Spice to Your Healthy Diet
Thursday, April 26th 6pm-9pm
Location: North Orem – Real Foods Market
Topic: Asian Cuisine – Learning to Prepare Asian food that’s full of health and flavor
All of these sound really good to me. I wonder where in Salt Lake is the workshop on sauces and dips. I kind of want to learn the five essential recipes too.
Location: Springville – Ginger’s Café (School of Natural Healing)
Topic: Beginning Raw I – Five Essential Recipes to Get You Started
Saturday, April 14th 10am-1pm
Location: Salt Lake City
Topic: Essential Condiments, Dips, and Sauces to add Spice to Your Healthy Diet
Thursday, April 26th 6pm-9pm
Location: North Orem – Real Foods Market
Topic: Asian Cuisine – Learning to Prepare Asian food that’s full of health and flavor
All of these sound really good to me. I wonder where in Salt Lake is the workshop on sauces and dips. I kind of want to learn the five essential recipes too.
Don't be afraid of your anger!
CA said in an email "Do you think you might be doing too many frequencies?" Gentle reminder that I am ALSO doing the MORS. Ok. Yes. And no. They are definitely bringing up the deepest things. BUT that's what I want.
Don't be afraid of your anger. That's what we did as children. My vow to myself and my child within is to own ALL my emotions. Even my scary ones. Anger wasn't ok. It was always "be a good girl". Do you remember the ditty "there was a little girl who had a little curl...right in the middle of her forhead. When she was good she was very very good, and when she was bad she was horrid." ? My mother used to sing that if I started to get angry or upset.
OWN your anger. Track it. KNOW what you are angry about. FOLLOW it like a thread, like breadcrumbs in the woods-but don't get lost in it. Track it, clear it.
I realized last night, in my deep anger was the anger of feeling that responsibility for everyone else. BECAUSE I can't ever be successful if they aren't happy. The obligation holds me in a limbo state-unable to step into my own happiness UNTIL. We wonder why we have this program to "wait" and I hear it all the time. "What am I waiting for?" Men and women...we have it, and I certainly had/have it. How damn deep does it run???
BUT! True to form, once I realized that I was the responsible one, and I took it back, and owned it and energetically said "I give you back your anger to deal with and own my own happiness without guilt"-he has shifted! This morning-he stated several positive changes, and has a better outlook. MAGIC! It works.
I also told him I can't plan a future with someone who is planning to die. He said "I'm not planning to die" to which I said "Then stop saying it and plan to live." That's words for all of us, isn't it? PLAN TO LIVE. Take responsiblility for YOUR LIFE and let the others own their own. I thought I was doing that, and on a conscious level I was, but deep at that unconscious level-I was angry because it was up to me to make him happy and I was failing. I definitely don't like failing.
Don't be afraid of your anger. That's what we did as children. My vow to myself and my child within is to own ALL my emotions. Even my scary ones. Anger wasn't ok. It was always "be a good girl". Do you remember the ditty "there was a little girl who had a little curl...right in the middle of her forhead. When she was good she was very very good, and when she was bad she was horrid." ? My mother used to sing that if I started to get angry or upset.
OWN your anger. Track it. KNOW what you are angry about. FOLLOW it like a thread, like breadcrumbs in the woods-but don't get lost in it. Track it, clear it.
I realized last night, in my deep anger was the anger of feeling that responsibility for everyone else. BECAUSE I can't ever be successful if they aren't happy. The obligation holds me in a limbo state-unable to step into my own happiness UNTIL. We wonder why we have this program to "wait" and I hear it all the time. "What am I waiting for?" Men and women...we have it, and I certainly had/have it. How damn deep does it run???
BUT! True to form, once I realized that I was the responsible one, and I took it back, and owned it and energetically said "I give you back your anger to deal with and own my own happiness without guilt"-he has shifted! This morning-he stated several positive changes, and has a better outlook. MAGIC! It works.
I also told him I can't plan a future with someone who is planning to die. He said "I'm not planning to die" to which I said "Then stop saying it and plan to live." That's words for all of us, isn't it? PLAN TO LIVE. Take responsiblility for YOUR LIFE and let the others own their own. I thought I was doing that, and on a conscious level I was, but deep at that unconscious level-I was angry because it was up to me to make him happy and I was failing. I definitely don't like failing.
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