Monday, April 16, 2007

wonder woman syndrome.

so ive been watching all of these women around me, (including myself), do it all. They are the mother the father the husband the wife the lover the hero the provider the teacher etc...and im watching them worn out. im watching them tired. what are we trying to prove?...we know we can do it all. clearly. but if we can share the load, allow others in to take off some of the pressure, allow ourselves to release our grip on doing it all why wouldnt we? what would happen if we let go on the strangle hold of 'all'....that 'no i can do it' or 'its ok i got it'.... are we afraid of looking weak? or not being competant? or is it simply control...we do it best? or do we not want to bother anyone? what is it? or is it all of the above? have we just 'had' to for so long that we think we know how to keep it all together? im tired of doing it all... i know i can. ive proved it. im a wonder woman. but im beat. and bored of this way. i know the future is the group the community ive known this since i was a child hence the farm... but whats the reluctance? is it how to have me in a group? how to 'own' my own in a group and no get lost? if i let you wash the dishes today so i can rest i mean what is really going to happen? im i afraid of looking lazy? this was a mirror of what i watched tonight with my sister. shes this amazing mother woman goddess and shes spent and doing it all and no one can help her....so what is it?

1 comment:

Joy! said...

Those old archetypes-martyr, and cinderella.

This is exactly what we talked about last night in the meeting. We've all done it all, and now we are all about doing it differently!

Women are hardest on women. The idea of supporting each other is huge, and not something most of us remember growing up. My mother did it alone. My grandmother did it alone. My aunts - yep - do it all alone.

I know how to do that too.